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♥ Sunday, 16 March 2008.

Daily Propehts.

> deny happily <

you know how it feels when you're supposed to do something, but you don't and someone accuses you of not doing it, but you'd deny it.
you'd feel guilty.
and i normally feel like this during music lessons.

you know how it feels when you normally do not do something you're supposed to do, but you do it this particular time, but someone still accuses you of not doing it.
you'd feel disappointed, pissed.
and i felt like this during music lesson on saturday.

i practised my piano. but yet it wasn good enough for her. maybe i didn practise as frequently as i'm supposed to, but i tried to practise. i really did. and i almost cried while playing. i could play them at home ok. i hate it la. its so sickening for my standard to just fall like this during lesson time. rawrs.

i feel like i'm living in denial everyday. i convince myself that i should be contented with my life and all. but i'm not. i try to convince myself that i no longer care if he msges me, but i do.
i feel like a liar everyday. everything i do, i say are such lies. i just want to protect my emotions and my life. but i often do not achieve my aim. more often than not, i show alot of emotions when i lie, esp to my mum.

...........

i spent my saturday watching shows online, i just started on TKA, cont'd with YLWBS, drinking soup, eating rum & raisin ice cream and astons', crying in my room, fiddling with my lappie, stretching my legs, sleeping.
i spent my sunday sleeping, headaching over fees, mac-brunch with mama & fel, stroll around bedok, borrowing books from library.

and my wireless at home is screwed lor. like just 1 week only. damn.

...........

life's really making feel sea-sick. its so up and down and up and down.
whenever things make me happy, there'd be things to push me down. then there'll be happy things. then sad things.

i think the only thing that made me happy over the weekend was
* him msging me on his own accord. muahaha. i think i can see him on wed. dear, can we go??
* brunch with mama & fel.
* the lil brown dress. i wanna get it!!!

i shall keep on trying to stay happy.
wanna catch SOL, buy dress, jeans, top. blehs. shall try to get the moolah for it.
andandand, i can meet the makan gang for makan soon!! mARCHE!! haha. mummy didn put me down for work. muaha.

lil superhero girl
i shall try.

Labels: emo, everythingg, happy, music

[ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 18:53 ]

♥ Tuesday, 1 January 2008.

Daily Propehts.

> <

its 11.55pm, 31 dec 2007.
last few minutes of 2007.
let me recap in these few minutes the whole of 2007.

the a-lots of 2007
play
cry
emo
shop
spend
sit in front of the comp
curse
quarrel
meeting of friends

the very-littles of 2007
study
concentration
practice piano
respect for others
being truthful abt how i feel abt things
involvment in sch/cca activities

the happies of 2007
still have dear by me. yay dear.
found a new confidante. my love.
found a whole new clique. ((:
joined a whole new different class. twelve =)
participating in something special. ocip
parents relaxing their rules.
finally found the route i'm heading to.

the sads of 2007
first ever failure.
the loss of confidante. ky.
the boring-est cca.
the changing of characters of friends.
the lack of smiles i've always wanted.
leaving twelve.

and its now 12:04am, 1 jan 2008.
the first few minutes of 208.
i shall list the things i want to do in the new year.

wants to:
study
study
study
practice piano
practice piano
gym
swim
exercise
shop
earn more $$
stay close with friends
smile more
stay more psycho
help bro in studies

don want to:
emo
emo
emo
cry over lil things
quarrel with parents
curse and swear
slack
slack
slack
grow fat

i really hope 2008 will bring new hopes, new dreams for me. i really want to use this yr to prove myself. bring myself to greater heights. and not stay in the old shadow of the emo me.

may everyone stay happiiee always!
and have a

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

this may be the start of something new

Labels: everythingg

[ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 00:10 ]

♥ Sunday, 16 December 2007.

Daily Propehts.

> <

i'm finally here to blogg..
yayyay!!

let me see..

work
- rather ok laa.
- quarrelled with my mum ocassionally coz she's always picking on me. ):
- my lovely girl, Li Lin came to find me and get me lunch! yay! loved seeing her!!
- HE came back!!! =DD
- and lots of things happened after HE came back!!
- and i love my colleagues.
- and i love jie
- and i love YOU**, love you boy(:

holiday
- quite fun
- bought 3 polo tees, 2 shorts, 1 jeans, 1 racerback
- loved shopping.
- the bus rides
- missed my love
- missed my dear
- missed YOU**
- i so want to go back there to shopp.
- get all those that i didn manage to get.

family
- succked totally.
- really stressful at home
- mum and dad having cold war
- just coz dad went to shave his hair during his trip overseas.
- sigghhhss. ):
- its real tough trying to navigate btwn them.
- but real lucky i have my boy and my love to hear me rant.

random
- i finally got my K810i
- yayness
- changed a new number.
- LOVE come back quickk!
- the whole of next month is like quite packed!!
- tml: cousin outing, Li Lin's birthday!!
- tues: outing with psychos, dear
- wed: squad outing
- 23rd: makan outing
- 25th: x'mas!
- 26th: OCIP x'mas party
- 27th: tkrcy camp
- 28th: MY BIRTHDAYY!!
- 30th: mama's birthday!!
- i think still got others
- like my beloved eyes!!
- like my boy

nothing elsee..
i really love my friends!
i really love my love!
i really love my dear!
i really love my boyy!
i really love my jie!

yayyness!

anyway!!

HAPPY advanced BIRTHDAY MY LOVELY GIRL!!
wait for my surprise!

<3s>

Labels: everythingg

[ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 21:54 ]