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my friends are my fuel.
my life is my challenge.
my mission is to live my life to the fullest



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♥ Cravings

1. smile more
2. white skirt
3. black jeans (:
4. wedges
5. black v-neck off-shoulder top (:
6. contacts
7. watch
8. laptop skin
9. formal top
10. pink nike bottle!



♥ Exits

DEAR
AMBROSE
CHANGLING
DEBBIE
ELI
ERWIN
HANIF
HAYDEN
HONGHUI
HUIQI
JEANETTE
JOAN
JONATHAN
JOSHUA
JUNYING
KENNETH
KENNY
KIMBERLY
KOKTONG
LILIN
LIYONG
LOUIS
MEEHAN
MINGYUE
POH BOON
RACHELINE
SIEW YUEN
TIMOTHY
TKRCY
WEIQI
YINGQI
YINLING
YIQIAN
YIYAN
ZHAOGEN

JIAFA
JIAHUI
PEIFEN
ZHIYONG


♥ Past

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  • July 2007
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  • October 2007
  • November 2007
  • December 2007
  • January 2008
  • February 2008
  • March 2008



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    ♥ Wednesday 31 October 2007.

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    i'm so guilty of neglecting my blog..
    for my show, chats with eli, joshua, shopping.
    yes.

    i feel so lazy to blog everything in detail.
    basically, over the past few days
    it was OP and OP.
    den yest, i went out with LOVE, YUEN, toilet.
    den we shopped at bugis
    i went to meet the nightmare
    and filled up my application from for non-uniformed volunteer
    den i got a treat at pastamania from nightmare!

    den today, OP in the morning
    den went home
    den went to find dear borrow card from her
    met mai at sing post this fashion shopping.
    and i bought my shirt dress!!
    like finally!! yay!
    come home
    watch show.

    the end. yay!

    * talked to ky.
    ha. still the same.. as stranger-like as ever

    ** but thanks joshuashuashua..
    for listening to me nag.

    *** meeting the lovely girl on friday!!
    finally!! going ecp. yayness!

    **** sat twelve outing to the karaoke again! double yayness.


    i shall go slp
    i'll be having show marathon tml.
    i need to finish it fast so i can lend it to my LOVE (:


    i know its all about my mind
    but sometimes, my mind just refuses to function like it should.
    i feel lost at times
    times when there's no one there for me.
    i cnt help but think about the past.
    the past when everything said was so clear after a long time.
    i guess.
    i'm still lost after all these months.



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 23:18 ]


    ♥ .

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    我找不到很好的原因
    屈足等着一切的亲密
    这感觉太奇异
    我抱歉不能说明
    我相信着爱情的定义
    奇迹会发生也不一定
    风温柔的清晰
    也许飘来好消息
    一切新鲜 有点冒险
    请告诉我怎么走到终点
    没有人了解
    没有人像我和陌生人爱恋
    我想我会开始想念你
    可是我刚刚才遇见了你
    我怀疑这奇遇只是个恶作剧
    我想我已慢慢喜欢你
    因为我拥有爱情的勇气
    我任性投入你给的恶作剧
    你给的恶作剧

    我找不到很好的原因
    屈足等着一切的亲密
    这感觉太奇异
    我抱歉不能说明
    我相信着爱情的定义
    奇迹会发生也不一定
    风温柔的清晰
    也许飘来好消息
    我才发现 你很遥远
    请让我再嘲笑你的想念
    没有人了解
    没有人像我和陌生人爱恋
    我想我会开始想念你
    可是我刚刚才遇见了你
    我怀疑这奇遇只是个恶作剧
    我想我已慢慢喜欢你
    因为我拥有爱情的勇气
    我任性投入你给的恶作剧
    你给的恶作剧



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 07:25 ]


    ♥ Monday 29 October 2007.

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    yayyay!!
    im finally done with the second last portion of PW..
    left OP and freeeeeee!!

    yayness.
    better go sleep alrd.
    tml long day. hehx.

    had a nice chat with my LOVE.
    (:
    thanks LOVE.


    nites all



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 23:34 ]


    ♥ .

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    omg..
    i haven't been blogging for the past 2 days.
    haha..

    hmm..

    saturday, 27/10
    went to music class, laugh laugh and laugh. went home for lunch. then went to meet DEAR! (:
    studies with DEAR. or rather she study, i slack, playing puzzle popper. haha. den after that shopped with DEAR! yay1 i love shopping with DEAR!! (: DEAR!! we go get our cardigan one day ok!! (: love you DEAR!!


    sunday, 28/10
    went out early in the morning to the temple.. den went to OG shop.. saw some nice stuff.. but other day when got discount den buy.. haha.. den coz benny wanted his PSP, went to AMK HUB, and PP. den went home. in the end also nv buy. =.= i want nitendo DS lite!! no fair nia. i can only have benny gameboy to accompany me through the long journey to sch..



    shall go do I&R, den watch my showww..
    tml gging sch to hand in I&R, den go TK return dummy, den go bugis shop, den go back tk for trg, den go hq meet the nightmare.. haha..

    yay. cnt wait for tml..



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 18:21 ]


    ♥ Friday 26 October 2007.

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    i had a really wonderful last day in tj.
    i love TWELVE!!
    esp the clique, hong hui, kenny, joshuashuashua, timothy.

    pics will be up another day,
    need to edit. hehx.

    wasted my money on renting my drama.
    tonnes of regret. sighs
    have to stinge on nxt wk's pocket $ to make up for it.
    sighs.

    tml pei-ing dear to study.
    shall start on cell bio.
    jiayou DEAR! (:


    26102007.
    a day to remember. (:



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 22:52 ]


    ♥ .

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    路太弯 by 潘玮柏

    我在这里计算沉淀的距离,
    下一站 ,有没有更期待的结局.

    眼 ,闭上眼, 看不看的见过去.
    看不看的见 原来那个你 和幸福的关系

    路太弯, 梦在转 ,错过的 人已不在.
    以为我 能习惯一个人的安全感.
    路太弯 ,还在转 ,明知忘记会很难.
    我一路上 跌跌撞撞 ,却找不回拥抱的形状.

    眼 ,闭上眼 ,看不看的见过去.
    看不看的见 原来那个你 和幸福的关系


    路太弯, 梦在转 ,错过的 人已不在.
    以为我 能习惯 一个人的安全感.
    路太弯 , 还在转, 明知忘记会很难.
    我一路上 跌跌撞撞 , 却找不回拥抱的形状.

    付出过是不是就换的回希望
    呼吸再乱 ,世界再宽
    缘分毕竟太短

    路太弯 ,梦在转, 错过的 人已不在.
    以为我 能习惯 一个人的安全感.
    路太弯 ,还在转 ,明知忘记会很难.
    我一路上 跌跌撞撞, 却找不回拥抱的形状

    我一路上 跌跌撞撞, 却找不回拥抱的形状.



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 19:35 ]


    ♥ Thursday 25 October 2007.

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    short post today.
    need to catch some sleep.
    so afraid of internet-hopping..
    and seeing so many memories of twelve.
    and cry..

    sch was relatively ok.
    almost cried during chem.
    miss li is so nice!!
    took photo with her! (:
    maths was horrible.
    she was picking on me.
    stupid *****

    tml officially last day of sch.
    damn.
    i'm so gonna miss the people in there.
    and some of the teachers.

    talked to NIGHTMARE.
    he arranged to bring me down to HQ on tues.
    to sign up as non-uniformed volunteer.
    hopefully its the right choice. (:
    pray that LOVE can join also.
    den i got kaki.. hehx..

    better go slp.
    tml must take alotalot of photos..
    haha..


    rawrs. I LOVE TWELVE!! <3<3<3




    the memories, will be kept deep in my heart, be my side forever.




    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 23:09 ]


    ♥ Wednesday 24 October 2007.

    Daily Propehts.

    > <



    guess what
    i did not even do anything music-y during music lesson today.
    haha.
    talked to miss fong abt studies, and abt yunnan.
    damn.
    i'm having doubts abt gging there.
    sounds damn horrible.


    hopefully fri can go out with the girls.
    haha.
    i want to eat ARNOLDS!!
    i want to watch mr woodcock and LUST, CAUTION
    haha.
    pls don ps me.. :(


    gahs.
    i shall go watch my teevee now.
    and write the letter.
    gees.




    i am willing to be weird just for you.




    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 21:22 ]


    ♥ .

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    oh great.
    the school office just called me. ha.
    lied to them that i got fever.
    got to produce a letter with my parents' signature and their contact number.
    rawrs.

    wonder how many ppl not in sch today,
    the school's real free..

    yay.

    going back to slp..
    zzzz. such a pig i am. =p



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 13:48 ]


    ♥ .

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    sleeping best cures emo-ness.
    but it doesn take away the cause of it.

    cam-whoring best cures unable-to-sleep-ness.
    but it doesn take away the cause of it.

    i realised that when we do alot of things to cure whatever.
    it doesn take away the cause of it.
    it still comes back.
    and the cycle repeats.

    ponned sch today.
    not really.
    im feeling feverish.
    LOVE say that tong recording names of absentees today.
    heck care laa..
    pls kick me out of sch. hehx.

    i'm like so addicted to blogshop-hopping and cam-whoring. =p
    i see like sooooo many nice clothes, but i dare not buy lehhs.
    plus i got no $$ laa..
    i shall buy my own clothes.. woo~
    $$ $$ come come.. hehx..

    and cam-whoring seems like a MUST before i go to slp.
    haha..
    just 1 nice pic makes me happpiiiieeeeee!! =DD
    i've got like 50+ cam-whoring pics in my phone now.
    all unable to transfer, coz my lousy phone don't have cable i think.
    someone pls get me a new phone!!
    and give me $$ $$!!
    so i can go soft-rebond my hair, buy lots and lots and lots of clothes and accesories!!
    haha.

    i'm a greedy pigg..
    i'm itching for mahjong too.
    someone jio me out plssss..
    esp those in jc lehhs..
    after OP, JIO ME OUT!! woo~

    i shall lower down my highness
    and start doing my music hw, and practice my pieces. hehx
    tata.



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 12:20 ]


    ♥ Tuesday 23 October 2007.

    Daily Propehts.

    > <



    today was an average day. school was quite horrible. lunch was as horrible, felt like vomitting after that.
    things got better after i got home.
    i'm finally done with meteor garden I
    don't think im gging on with part II. haha.
    and i just finished watching 200 pounds beauty.
    super nice. i cried. haha.


    i think i am just useless.
    real useless.
    i've got no guts just to say hi.
    yeah,
    its impossible.
    so what
    the harboured hopes have nv disappeared.
    i really dunno what to do.
    someone tell me pls.

    it sux.
    when u want your presence to be felt.
    but you are being neglected.
    sometimes i really ask myself.
    what are friends for.
    is there really friends forever.
    is there anything such as ever-lasting friendship.
    i can never give a definate answer to myself.
    because everything seems like an illusion.
    everything seems to be fading.
    slowly fading.

    im losing interest in everything.
    everything i do.
    i dunno what i can do.
    except rot.
    fade away from the world.

    下一站 ,有没有更期待的结局 .
    i'm awaiting the answer.
    will someone tell me pls.
    i feel lost.
    confused.
    disillusioned.
    i am on the verge of losing myself.
    the strength to pull myself up again is gone.


    it seems like i'll be indulging in my tears tonight.
    school tml is definately out.
    i've got to hide the tears.



    if only you could love me. just someone to love me......




    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 23:32 ]


    ♥ Monday 22 October 2007.

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    time alone = emo
    thinking about him = emo
    no her, her, her to talk to me = emo
    mum nag = emo
    emo afternoon.
    emo night.

    i need to learn to stand on my own. i need to learn to solve problems myself. i need to survive the difficult times without his help. i need alot of courage to do the above. who will give me the courage?



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 21:35 ]


    ♥ .

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    願意不愛你 - 炎亞綸

    十字街道做背景 寒風當道具
    氣氛悶的就像要下雨 我在等回憶光臨
    記憶中那場相遇 還如此清晰
    怎麽轉眼就面對分離

    溫馨片段沒整理 已經來不及
    你說有我暖過的手心 現在貼著別的心
    深情像片碎玻璃 散落在眼底
    閃著晶瑩卻也痛了自己

    我願意不愛你 以後所有快樂傷悲都那麽多餘
    我願意不愛你 痛就放在心裡不用關閉不需要痊癒

    快樂點滴沒整理 已經來不及
    你說屬於我們的回憶 已都不能夠繼續
    再見說的那麼輕 就好像空氣
    可是為甚麼我無法呼吸

    我願意不愛你 以後所有快樂都塗上淒美記憶
    我願意不愛你 從此就將回憶點滴直接注射在心裡

    我願意不愛你 以後所有快樂傷悲都那麽多餘
    我願意不愛你 痛就放在心裡不用關閉不需要痊癒

    我願意不愛你 痛就放在心裡不用關閉不需要痊癒



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 16:53 ]


    ♥ .

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    daddy wasted my morning today. he asked me to go work at his office. but it turned out that the HR guy just wanted to talk to me. =.= i dunno if i can get the job. scared lehhs. coz of my rather busy schedule. pls give me the job. i need it. or rather the money, so i can get my laptop and shop with my LOVE, DEAR, LI LIN, WEIQI. haha. so im preparing to go to school for chinese. haha. i cnt believe this. go to school for chinese. i just feel like taking chinese on my own. haha. i have only 2/3 more epi for my show!! i want to finish it!! ahh!



    i think i really miss tk. really alot. i dreamt of it yest. haha




    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 11:52 ]


    ♥ Sunday 21 October 2007.

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    sunday 21st oct
    the best day in dunno how long.
    I LOVE TWELVE!!

    i think i will miss twelve when i leave tj.
    i really will miss.
    esp the clique, and the group of guys. (:
    they rawk my days.



    if i give you another chance, will you?



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 06:04 ]


    ♥ .

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    你好喜欢看我眼睛
    你说是宇宙的缩影
    只要没有分离
    天气晴 能看见星星
    我努力爱你宠你调整自已

    我是邻居还是伴侣
    时间带来残忍结局
    在爱情的隔壁住友情
    界线太锐利
    对不起就一刀切开所有亲密

    眼底星空 流星开始坠落
    每一滴眼泪说着你要好好走
    转过身跌入黑洞
    看着天长地久变两种漂泊
    男人流泪比流血加倍心痛

    眼底星空 流星跌落手中
    我紧紧握着抬头向上天祈求
    愿你先找到温柔
    有人包扎伤口也挡住寂寞
    谢谢你陪我陪爱 听雨追风

    用三年去维紧感情
    用三秒钟结束关系
    剩回忆能回去 能温习 能把你抱紧
    就算爱烧成灰尽扬起变乌云

    眼底星空 流星开始坠落
    每一滴眼泪说着你要好好走
    转过身跌 入黑洞
    看着开长地久变两种漂泊
    男人流泪比流血加倍心痛

    眼底星空 流星跌落手中
    我紧紧握着抬头向上天祈求
    愿你先找到温柔 有人包扎伤口也挡住寂寞
    谢谢你陪我陪爱 听雨追风

    眼底星空 流星跌落手中
    我紧紧握着抬头向上天祈求
    愿你先找到温柔 有人包扎伤口也挡住寂寞
    谢谢你陪我陪爱 听雨追风
    谢谢他给你给爱另一个星空



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 06:01 ]


    ♥ .

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    facade: a superficial appearance or illusion of something

    i always use the word.
    yet i nv really went to find out what it really means.
    now i know.

    my smiles are just a facade.
    i trick people with my smiles.

    they get tricked by my facade.
    they think i am a happy girl.

    i am not.
    seriously not.

    i've lost alot of things before.
    family
    friends
    impt things

    but i guess the 'thing' i lost that caused my change most dramatically was
    him
    none other than him.

    i actually wanted to talk to him just now
    but there was this pulling force
    sometime restraining myself to talk to him.

    maybe i can no longer talk to him.
    maybe we can no longer be friends.
    maybe liking him was wrong in the first place.
    maybe even knowing him was wrong in the first place.

    everything is haywire.
    what an irony


    there's cg outing tml.
    yet i have to go to ah-ma's hse.
    hopefully, they'll have dinner
    then, i will join them.
    pls do, twelve.
    one of the last.


    i've been lying all these while.
    about how i feel about everything going by me.
    about how i view those things you told me.

    i shall continue indulging in the pain of my self-caused ulcer.



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 00:23 ]


    ♥ Saturday 20 October 2007.

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    i finally had my ikea swedish meatball fix.
    i love daddy! (:


    tml got cg outing.
    but i've to go grandma's house.
    hopefully they'll be having dinner together
    then i can go.


    i'm sorry twelve. i don't want to be attached to you people anymore. coz i'm afraid that i'll miss you guys like hell. i really love twelve.


    my life's quite peaceful for now.
    daddy wants me to work.
    so i guess i'll have to work.
    then i have $$
    then i can shop!! (:


    I LOVE DEAR (:



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 20:43 ]


    ♥ Friday 19 October 2007.

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    i was a good girl today.
    i went to school. (:
    but it was a waste of time as usual.
    tutorials were used to watch my show.
    hehx.
    rewatched meteor garden once more.
    haha.
    recalled those nights i spent with clara watching the VCDs.
    haha.
    no more of such i guess

    but anw, yuen, fel, kang yu watched with me.
    using LOVE's lappie.
    THANKS LOVE!! (:


    i got this para of words from the show, when this song was played.

    Women,
    dazzling diamonds and glittering jewellery
    have won you illusory majesty.

    But what's left around you is only snobbish poison
    the odour of arrogance
    and alluring but fatal
    fragrance.

    Women,
    when you once again salute wealth
    hail fame
    and extol power
    please do not ask about the thrush which sung to you.

    It has flown away
    because it has sung itself hoarse.
    its golden voice has perished
    for the sake of it real, dignified and pure soul.



    i think its really really true.
    thou i don't really understand it deeply,
    i roughly understand what it means.
    there's really alot of things going on in my head now.

    i've quite some quotes from the book i read recently.
    shall put them up slowly.

    i love my blog song.
    long time since i really appreciated such wonderful music.

    music lesson tml.
    shall go.


    i waited for her reply, but it never came



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 05:49 ]


    ♥ Thursday 18 October 2007.

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    skipped school again today.
    i really don't like to go to school.
    even the girls offer no more comfort.
    its sad.
    real sad.

    i cannot wait for school to end tml.
    i cannot wait to go back to tk tml.
    back to the comforts of my secondary school life.
    back to the smiles of my 2 lovely teachers.
    back to the laughters of my juniors.
    back to the talks with my weifang.

    dread going back to school.
    music lesson on sat.
    dread it too.

    home sucks.
    my mum is constantly saying that i failed promos purposely.
    suck suck suck suck.


    have to go.

    i miss my dear alrd.



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 04:55 ]


    ♥ Wednesday 17 October 2007.

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    today was a boring day, until i met up with DEAR!!
    i went to school today.
    did the ppt slides during lesson time.
    teachers didn even bother about me.
    plus
    laoshi said i cnt go school only for chinese and pw
    coz of what?
    yunnan ocip.
    because im gging as a tjcian.
    its real stupid la.
    now i have to waste time in school.
    sian la.
    den i cnt even work to earn money.
    sian x2
    decided to stone in class.
    and also study the notes from biomed that loser is gging to lend me.

    but on a brighter side,
    i met up with DEAR today.
    and also that idoit-gay
    followed him around to get his present.
    so he got a white belt for himself, paid by DEAR.
    i tell you ah, that idiot-gay is real suaku la.
    walk with him can die.
    but anw, thank you to him for the yakun treat. hehx.
    trained back with DEAR
    yay!!
    I LOVE DEAR LOTS!!
    cnt wait to go out with DEAR and weiqi for our shopping also!!


    i suddenly feel detached from them.
    just a few days not in school, suddenly feel like everything's changed.
    i even have time to emo myself.
    just 1 more week, and its the last day of school alrd.
    i really want to treasure the time.
    but it seems like its getting worse.
    i really love them as my friends.
    i dunno why this is happening.



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 06:24 ]


    ♥ Tuesday 16 October 2007.

    Daily Propehts.

    > <



    randomness..


    skipped school today.

    parents skeptical abt me taking biomed

    parents scared that i'll hate it again at poly

    mum thinks i want to go sp coz dear is there

    mum is afraid i'll become bad over at poly

    mum doesn allow me to highlight my hair :(

    mum thinks going poly is about wearing OP tee shirts. =.=

    mum set sososo many rules for me. =.= =.=

    tml got OP. =.= =.= =.=

    daddy found me full time work at his office.

    1 mth 1000+

    but i have to go back to school for chinese and pw. =.= x 4

    but i need $$ to sponsor wardrobe.

    i shall use my first pay to treat my dear, love and parents.

    i cnt wait for my bag to come from spree.

    i need $$.

    i dont want to quit school to work.

    i miss my girls, esp YUEN and LOVE.

    but i need $$

    i need $$

    i need $$

    i miss the girls.

    i super miss the girls.

    pw is a bore

    pw is a chore

    loser promise to lend me his notes from sem 1 so i can start ahead.

    i shall be nice girl to mummy from now on.

    i love 12/07

    i love the clique

    i love chengmistry

    i love jialin

    i love bridget mama

    i love fel

    i love and miss memi

    i love YUEN!

    I LOVE WO DE AI!

    I LOVE LOVE LOVE DEAR!!



    to yuen and love, pls don miss me. learn to survive without me, i'll have to learn to survive without you 2 girls with me too. i will miss the gossips and everything..


    i love them to bits and pieces

    have to go to school tml to settle stuff.

    sighs.




    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 08:51 ]


    ♥ Monday 15 October 2007.

    Daily Propehts.

    > 一个人 <


    一个人 by 蔡依林




    从皮包里抽出我们的照片
    沙发又移到客厅的另一边
    晚饭后你可以多抽几口香烟
    已经没有什么人会埋怨
    今天阴天 今天又是星期天
    唯一的打算是醒得晚一些
    反正我不知道怎样打发时间
    出门或不出门 没差别
    一个人 到底应该是右边或左边
    两个人 每一次争吵都值得纪念
    一个人 偶尔感到寂寞在所难免
    你的气味 还留在枕头边
    一个人 我重新适应一切不方便
    两个人 不一定就成全一个世界
    一个人 关灯看见记忆的横切面
    没有光线 过去那些情节 更明显

    今天阴天 今天又是星期天
    唯一的打算是醒得晚一些
    反正我不知道怎样打发时间
    出门或不出门 没差别
    一个人 到底应该是右边或左边
    两个人 每一次争吵都值得纪念
    一个人 偶尔感到寂寞在所难免
    你的气味 还留在枕头边
    一个人 我重新适应一切不方便
    两个人 不一定就成全一个世界
    一个人 关灯看见记忆的横切面
    没有光线 过去那些情节 更明显
    更明显



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 19:08 ]


    ♥ .

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    i cnt believe that i spent my public holiday with the yunnan people.
    but it turned out well. haha.. loved it. let me recap what i have been doing.. since everything seemed so extract over the past few days.

    thrusday
    ponned sch.
    stayed home the whole day.
    emo
    play comp
    sleep lots
    felt better after that

    friday
    got back overall results.
    SSSSA.
    failed overall.
    teared coz laoshi wasn sure if i cld proceed with yunnan trip.
    lunched with the girls.
    squeezed with 11 others into mr cheng's van
    went to CGH for vaccination.
    super pain
    met haoning
    watched nanny diaries at MS.
    bought DEAR's present
    bought nail polish
    spent all of my pocket money.
    went home late.

    saturday
    had the talk with dad.
    screamed at mum.
    cried like hell.
    fell asleep while crying and msging LOVE.
    sleep
    msg LOVE
    sleep
    msg LOVE
    sleep
    went to grandma's hse for dinner
    hid in a corner.
    talked to no one.
    went home.
    watch tv
    emo
    sleep

    sunday
    cleared part of my room.
    washed the clothes.
    prepared to go out with DEAR, kimkim, weiqi and haydenden
    met DEAR at paya lebar.
    trained to city hall
    met up with haydenden
    walked to suntec
    met kimkim
    queued for KBOX
    got my KBOX card
    went to K.
    lovely.
    weiqi came
    more K-ing.
    wanted to take neos
    but the shop was empty
    so used haydenden's cam to take pics.
    haydenden left
    me and the girls went to toys r us to get kimkim's rubic cube
    went to this vegetarian restaurant for dinner.
    yummy food.
    chatted.
    walked ard.
    went to THIS FASHION.
    tried this dress.
    super nice.
    bu she de buy.
    tried this red long-sleeve top.
    super super nice.
    decided to buy it
    dear got the green one.
    went for B&J
    yummy
    gossiped.
    paired up with DEAR to disturb loser.
    trained home.
    parents asleep. yea! (:
    HAPPY HAPPY DAY!! thou i spent $40 in a day

    monday
    went to sch reluctantly.
    played some games in classroom.
    walked to bedok interchange with the group.
    took some photos for photo interpretation.
    shared with everyone
    slept on the bus on the way to ACM.
    disturbed laoshi nearing destination.
    toured ACM.
    had fun with the group, esp pinqi
    homed.
    talked nicely to mum.
    tried doing I&R.
    just gave up and blogged
    tml go sch and finish I&R


    anw.
    i'll be proceeding on to the next stage of my life.
    POLY!!
    yes. i will be enrolling myself into..
    SINGAPORE POLY - BIOMEDICAL SCIENCE
    hopefully i can get in.
    and i am determined to do well.
    despite pat ma'am's advice that its quite difficult and requires ALOT of memorising.
    i have to get scholarship every year.

    and i think i'll be working part-time real soon.
    as soon as i get a job.
    lobangs ppl.. hehx.


    i gtg do my chinese ws. hehx..

    cya ppl



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 07:56 ]


    ♥ Sunday 14 October 2007.

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    i love my girls and the guy.
    Li Lin
    KimKim
    Weiqi
    Jingxuan
    Kat
    Hayden

    not forgetting..
    DEAR!! (:

    had a nice time with the few of them, esp the kimkim, the qiqi, the dear.. hehx.

    blog full details soon.

    have to visit ACM tml.

    ciao



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 08:53 ]


    ♥ Saturday 13 October 2007.

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    i cnt stand it at home.
    believe it or not.
    apart from having the talk with my parents.
    i barely spoke over 10 sentences for the rest of the day. apart from the almost one hr talk with dear

    i cnt wait to meet my lovely friends later.



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 18:54 ]


    ♥ Wednesday 10 October 2007.

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR!!!



    i love you DEAR.
    have a happy happy birthday today!!

    thou i cnt be with you today,
    i'll see you on the 14th!!


    生日快乐 DEAR!!



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 20:09 ]


    ♥ .

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    there are a few ppl who can make me cry over little things.
    DEAR
    LOVE
    lovely

    and also,
    MDM ONG!

    she msged me yest.
    asking abt promos.
    i cldn help but cry.

    i felt guilty.
    guilty for disappointing her.

    her advices made me even more guilty.
    more guilty = more crying.

    i miss her.
    i miss mrs chee.
    i miss the 4b row.
    i miss tkrcy.


    thank you to those who tagged.
    esp DEAR!

    DEAR,
    我会好好的
    我会坚强的.

    LOVE,
    i won cry any more.
    coz i don want to make you cry any more.


    i really need to be strong.
    i should be strong.


    having the talk with dad tonight.
    i cnt cry. i cnt cry.



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 20:09 ]


    ♥ .

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    i know im not supposed to cry anymore
    but i cldn keep the tears back again.
    when miss lee asked if i studied
    i cldn help but cry.
    i did
    i seriously did.

    i hate it at home.
    when my mum is at home.
    she criticises.
    she insults.
    it sucks.




    i want to go poly.
    i really want to go.
    i want to take biomed/nursing
    i really want to take either course.



    but im afraid i won get approval.
    dad seems like he doesn approve.
    i dunno.
    i don enjoy it in tj.
    i really want to get out of tj.




    i dunno LOVE,
    i tried to talk alrd.
    i'm afraid i cnt make it through this crisis.

    can someone help me?
    someone save me out from this disaster i didn wish for




    khoo yu's no longer here for me.
    he is no longer here to give me advice.
    i miss his advice.




    i need help pls.
    you will never be here for me again.





    anw, thanks LOVE and nightmare for supporting me for the past few days.
    would have gone crazy if not for them.
    thanks! (:




    i shall go hide in my room again.
    good night world.









    i will miss this class forever




    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 05:39 ]


    ♥ Tuesday 9 October 2007.

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    26% for physics.
    am i pro or what.

    crying in class.
    am i an ass or what.

    i hate myself.
    i really do.

    i hate myself for being such a weak person.
    i hate myself for not studying even harder. although i studied real hard already

    i wish someone will kill me.
    i wish someone will run his car over me.
    i wish to disappear from this world.

    why cant i get results when i put in the effort.
    can someone tell me why!?

    i really studied alot.
    i really did.

    yet this is all i get.

    fucking 26% for physics
    bloody 36% for chem.
    pissing 77% for chi.

    why cant i get results which equals to the effort i put in?
    i cant bear to lose.
    lose all the friends i have in tj.
    lose all the confidence i have in myself.

    why didn i lose the stress in me.

    i dunno what i am going to tell my parents.
    all i am capable now is cry.

    i hate my life.
    i hate everything presently.
    everything sucks.

    maybe i'll just die tml



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 14:51 ]


    ♥ .

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    i really my parents would whack and scold me like they used to do when i didn do well in the past.
    them treating me so nicely will make me feel real guilty.
    coz i know deep inside there, they are so disappointed
    and they really want to release the disappointment.

    but as time passes, they learn that violence is not the cure
    yet as time passes, i learn that violence is one of the cures to wake my senses up.

    the pain, the mental torture, is so much better than the royal treatment.
    i hate to see them silent.

    come, anyone, whack me pls.


    shi jie mo ri - jay chou



    想笑
    来伪装自己掉下的眼泪
    点点头
    承认自己会怕黑

    我只求能借一点的时间来陪
    你却连同情都不给

    想哭
    来试探自己麻痹了没
    全世界
    好像只有我疲惫
    无所谓
    无所无所谓
    反正难过就敷衍走一回
    但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞

    天灰灰
    会不会让我忘了你是谁
    夜越黑梦违背
    难追难回味

    我的世界将被摧毁
    也许事与愿违
    (也许)
    累不累睡不睡
    单影无人相依偎
    有谁肯安慰
    或许颓废也是另一种美

    -会不会让我入睡
    有谁安慰-


    i feel as if its worlds' end alrd.
    -maybe i'll be gone tml-



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 03:52 ]


    ♥ Monday 8 October 2007.

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    i think i know when i have to give up holding on to something that isn meant to be in the first place.

    and i know, i'm on my way to where i really should be


    my tear-stained face
    only you know why



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 04:49 ]


    ♥ Saturday 6 October 2007.

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    after blogging for a few times in a day for the past few days
    i felt weird not blogging yesterday.
    not that i didn want to
    is that i cldn come online.

    too tired.
    clocking less than 10 hrs in 2 days.
    i cld easily get 8 hrs per day during promos period.

    i was sososo tired yest.
    coz i slept at like 1am on friday.
    and had like a full-day yest.

    morning had yunnan meeting.
    beginning to love the team, except a few.
    got into our groups.
    CHENGMISTRY!! we rawk man.
    laughing non-stop.
    and im assistant leader. felt weird.
    does that mean anything? i did ok to go for the trip?

    yepps.
    i'm rather looking forward to the trip.
    but the thought of 2 weeks away from homely s'pore makes me irk.
    imagine.

    1. you get to bathe everyday in s'pore.
    in yunnan, i get to bathe once in 5 days

    2. you get to shit and flush everything down the toilet bowl.
    in yunnan, i have to shit in a deep hole, and my shit cnt be flushed away.

    3. you get to sleep on your comfortable bed
    in yunnan, i have to sleep on the floor.

    4. you get to do work in a comfy environment
    in yunnan, i have to lay roads for them.

    but still, the teams the love!


    and after meeting, i rushed to PP to meet MAKAN GANG!!!
    long time since i met them!
    so glad to see them.
    and i was late.
    so sorry ppl.

    walked to our eating place.
    somewhere where i promised LOVE and LILIN to go with them.
    i shall go there with DEAR too!

    then, we walked back to PP.
    sat at MACs without buying anything.
    gossiping with cl and mai is like so cool.
    coz we've got common subj.

    and we saw so many ppl.
    ange, jan, wenyu, nicholas, joel.

    haha.
    gging to tuition later.
    pei haoning. =p i get to get a treat. yay! (:



    shall go.

    4 days to DEAR'S BIRTHDAY!!


    7 days to meeting the row!!!


    cnt wait for nxt week, thou it'll be quite sad coz of results. sighs
    and i've got 4 vaccinations due on fri!!! mygod
    who cares!? i have the wkends to look forward to.



    ****ilu DEAR!
    **ilu lovely
    *ilu LOVE



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 21:58 ]


    ♥ Friday 5 October 2007.

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    i deleted a chunk of words from my previous post. just didn feel like putting it there to spoil everything that is less-than-perfect.

    had a nice talk with dear when we went out with jonk, bzp, qite, mai, zong, pz, nif, melvin. they were talking and i had lil talk with dear.

    as i talked to her
    i realised that i have lost trust in almost everyone.
    except dear and nightmare.

    even best friends do not earn this trust.
    i am so afraid someone will betrayme someday.

    and i realised that guys do not seem as simple as they seem.
    im traumatised.


    i hate it when i go all emo.
    all coz of friendship and guys.
    they're just part of my life.
    yet they have the most impact on my life.
    even more than studies.
    sux.


    sometimes i wonder if everything and everyone around me is the real them.
    or are they just facades that make them seem so much a better person.


    i love going out with dear.
    coz i can tell dear everything.
    coz i can trust dear.
    coz i cannot trust other people.


    someone told me this before.
    it is not easy to trust, yet so easy to not trust.
    funny as it is, i think it is so true.

    it is not easy to trust others.
    yet, to not trust, it takes such lil effort.



    today was a bad day turned good, thanks to the night!!


    14th it shall be people!



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 08:42 ]


    ♥ Thursday 4 October 2007.

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    today's got to be one of the worst days ever!!

    first, i woke up late
    second, rushed to school just to realise that there's no morning assembly
    third, have to be insulted by some #@!&% jerk, who thinks he is the greatest
    fourth, have to entertain this #@!&% gay, who thinks he is my mother, who loves to put the blame on other people.
    fifth, had to brave the super hot sun while walking to tk to collect the #@!&% heavy dummy back.

    the only things that made my day was yuen funny food-thing, and the new watch i bought from bugis while i accompanied zhipeng to get stuff. ha.


    oh yea, thanks to loser, joshua, LOVE, nightmare for listening to me nag and curse. haha. thanks lots.


    its still a bad day.
    im living to hate tml as well.
    got to see #@!&% jerk. and the fau booth, and the yunnan fundraising.

    cnt wait for 4b mini dinner.


    RAWRS!




    失恋学 - lin yu zhong


    初恋那个夏天我们学会热恋
    要快乐有条件幸称有要诀

    后来牵手很累我们学会告别
    低估了想念
    越想越危险越想见

    我们忘了学怎么失恋
    深夜该怎么不掉眼泪
    还不了解爱的情节
    一旦下了片不再上演

    我们忘了学怎么失恋
    移情别恋治不好失眠
    偏让那不经意的遇见
    却视而不见
    我们都掩着
    哭红了的双眼



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 08:39 ]


    ♥ Wednesday 3 October 2007.

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    i dread going back to school tml.
    lots of things waiting to be settled.
    pw. yunnan. open house.
    sucks man.

    i cnt wait the weekdays to be over.
    den i can just relax again.


    teaching chuying just now was rather ok.
    coz it was still fresh in my mind.
    hopefully i thot the right things ba.
    den had dinner at delifrance with her.
    the waiter was such a blur person.
    and he didn charge the soup to our bill.
    so we payed like $2 less per person.
    hehx.
    walked with her to lib where she continued studying and i went home
    JIA YOU CHUYING!! (:


    i will be like popping by tk tml afternoon.
    need to borrow lil anne from tkrcy. hehx.


    shall go sleep.
    real tired.


    爱错- Lee Hom


    北风好不留情
    把叶子吹落
    坠落的它他选择的逃脱
    叶子失去小心
    风才感觉寂寞
    整个冬天
    北风的痛没人能说
    我从来没想过
    我会这样做
    从来没爱过
    所以爱错
    我从那里起飞
    从那里降落
    多少不能原谅的错却不能从来过

    翻开回忆角落
    忘记的生活
    以为幸福都可以掌握
    仔细回味当初那个故事背后
    喔原来是我
    犯下从没真的爱错
    我从来没想过
    我会这样做
    从来没爱过所以爱错
    我从那里起飞
    从那里降落
    多少不能原谅的错却不能从来过...
    真的受未你的世界
    喔...找不会那些感觉
    其实我不想到别
    那些过去
    我从来没想过
    我会这样做
    从来没爱过(从来没有爱过那么认的)
    我从那里起飞
    从那里降落(降落)
    多少不能原谅的错却不能从
    从来没想过
    我会这样做
    从来没爱过(爱过)
    所以爱错(所以爱错)
    从那里起飞(爱错爱错爱错baby)
    从那里降落
    多少不能原谅的错
    请你原谅我的爱错




    sometimes, some people just don't know when to stop asking and faking their concern
    and i realise its 104 alrd


    liing'x loves dear! (:
    #1110-2812



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 08:38 ]


    ♥ Tuesday 2 October 2007.

    Daily Propehts.

    > <


    im here again.
    i think im blogging too much.



    gahs. random.

    i hate pw.
    i hate pw.
    i hate pw.
    i hate pw.
    i hate pw.



    my god. pw is like sucking all my energy away.
    i was up till like 2+ trying to figure out my slides.
    luckily there was the nightmare talking to me.
    if not i think i would have gone crazy.


    and his good stuff was not-at-all good.
    rather crap.
    but gahs.
    its a deal.
    if i drop out of sucky tj.
    and go to poly.
    i'll sign back on at HQ.
    as a non-uniformed volunteer.
    ha.



    and i think things are like getting a lil out-of-hand over at the pdp.
    all last min stuff.
    and i get unreplied msges.
    oh freak. damnit.
    all the saikang.
    my msg is gonna exceed like nobody's business.
    and my fone will get confiscated.
    thanks la the whoever who cnt msg on her own.


    chatted with nana yest.
    haven't seen her and talked to her in a long long time.
    miss the times walking to the next busstop
    and talking abt haha. cca. RC AND GG.
    nana! CHEER UP!!


    did i mention the super funny thing that happened yest, when i went to look for the lovely Li Lin. she was at kallang macs. so i 12-ed for 2 stops and changed 16. fell asleep on the bus. woke up just right for the stop. den i was waiting for the girl. at the busstop behind the KFC. den wait wait wait, she didn appear. so i msged her again. " i'm at the busstop behind kfc". and almost immediately she called me. apparently she walked to her house busstop, one stop before mine. haha. i didn want to go into macs to wait for her, coz i was not in condition, so i wanted to meet her half-way. so i walked to the previous busstop. and apparently there were road works gging on. i took the outside road, which was like super dangerous, i didn know i could walk inside, den i msged her again, asking her if she was like at the busstop and she replied that she was walking back to macs. my god. so i walked the dangerous route back again, and FINALLY i found her at the traffic light. my god. and it all happened under the ever so hot sun!! haha. so much for not wanting to go into macs, coz i didn want to see her frd, i felt like having green tea, so when i reached the door, i ran in! HAHA. i looked damn kuku la, coz her friend was sitting near the door. HAHA. andandand, when i wanted to go back, i could have used the main door, i followed Li Lin to the side door and i saw her friend! AHH. very stupid and lame. i was crapping with her throughout my bus ride. and i didn get to get my 8-Days. coz the 33 came too early. i opened the door of 7-11, the 33 bus came alrd, so i just run to the bus. no 8-Day! :(


    friday is gonna be a hell-sucky day. EoM submission, shit, its still unedited, open house double shit, running btwn yunnan and pdp. but it all boils down to SHOPPING with dear and mai after that. i need $$!! hehx


    saturday is MAKAN!! long long time since we makan-ed together alrd. cnt wait.


    sunday is being a nice friend. and going to tuition with the goodie, haoning. although i'm free. she owes me one. bleaghs.


    after which, it'll be results and wish me luck. ahhh!!



    gotta go. meeting the new-17-yr-old chuying at PP to teach her econs. gahs.



    suddenly, i feel like putting this photo up,


    i miss each and every one of them! esp the center one. mdm ong! (:




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    3rd post today.. sighs..

    got this from LOVE's blog.. find it a thinking point



    When leaders make a mistake, they say, "I was wrong."
    When followers make mistakes,they say, "It wasn't my fault."

    A leader works harder than a follower;
    a follower is always "too busy" to do what is necessary.

    A leader goes through a problem;
    a follower goes around it and never gets past it.

    A leader makes and keeps commitments;
    a follower makes and forgets promises.

    A leader says, "I'm good, but not as good as I ought to be;"
    a follower says, "I'm not as bad as a lot of other people."

    Leaders listen;
    followers just wait until it's their turn to talk.

    Leaders respect those who are superior to them and tries to learn something from them;
    followers resent those who are superior to them and try to find chinks in their armor.

    Leaders feel responsible for more than their job;
    followers say, "I only work here."

    A leader says, "There ought to be a better way to do this;"
    followers say, "That's the way it's always been done here."
    -anonymous


    after looking at this, i ask myself, was i a good leader last time. am i still a good leader now.
    not even good. am i even behaving like a leader. did i behave like a leader.

    i guess my ans to myself is NO.

    i never knew what i was doing. all i knew was to slack.
    it was like that in the past. it is like that now.

    even being the vice-chair did no help.
    it was like that in tkrcy. it is now in tj fau.

    i know i have always yearned to be a leader.
    but am i really one?

    they say i am.
    but am i really one?

    NO, i'm not.

    i've wasted my time in ULP.
    i've wasted my chance from shenyang, tkrcy, and all.

    i dont want to be just a follower.
    but i am not fit to be a leader.


    maybe, its time for me to reflect again.



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 08:02 ]


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    > i must be the stupidest person on earth <


    i must be the biggest klutz ever!

    how could i forget my beloved email's pw?

    i hate myself for it

    i think im the stupidest person ever.

    just one ppt file, i cld have just copied and paste.

    why did i click that damn thing..

    great.

    6 years of friends and memories all gone.

    esp that email from him.


    ahhh!!


    so ppl.. no more groovy_chocolate_88@hotmail.com alrd..

    its liing.liing@hotmail.com.. sighs



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 07:44 ]


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    PROMOS ARE OVERRR!!!!



    yay babeh!!
    no more mugging.. for now at least

    phy was rather ok.. or i think so, much more do-able than jcts. ;D



    and i gotta say this, for the first time,

    SHOPPING IS ADDICTIVE!! XD

    shopped at far east yest. the first time i spent my whole trip to town at far east. hehx. not supposed to get anything de.. but i just saw so many lovely stuff.. so me and eli made a pact not to leave far east without any purchases.. me, eli, fel, mama, walked far east for like two rounds. hehx. wanted the get the vested shirt. but couldn find a similar one for me LOVE. so proceeded to get the long striped cardigan, but it was rather ex. in the end! i got myself a green with black trimmings tunic + a brown cardigan!! happy like hell!! and i felt so addicted ok! hehx.. and i also bought my heeled peep-toe pumps.
    and mum didn scold me! hehx..


    today's gonna be the last day i can afford to slack, coz i gotta pia piano and yunnan!! hehx.. BUT i still want to shop!! woo~


    i cnt wait to meet DEAR and SHOP!! yay!!


    i love DEAR!! (:



    [ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 03:10 ]