I shall have a happy post today!! =))

Today started off relatively well…when I managed to wake up at 4 to study!! Hee.. I promised haydena to be a good mug(girl). Haa managed to sqeeze some ECONS into my half-asleep brain. Haa.

Then moms started talking nicely to me again. Even prepared my stuff for me. Heeee. Then missed the 229 bus which lovely fang yun was on, but I managed to spend some time reflecting and psychoing myself to be happy!! And I was!!! Haa.

HAPPINESS started during break, after boring, don understand anything econs tuto. Checked out the YUNNAN OCIP board and found out that I WAS IN!!!! haa. I was momentarily shocked and lived in disbelief. Esp after the crap I talked during the interview! Andandand..the best thing that got me exhilarated, yes, exhilarated, was that zong is in too!!! Woooooo~ that equates to like twice we got to go overseas for sch stuff together!!! Haa. Weee~ seriously I just wanted someone to be there for me, help me la. Haa. Yayyay. After that was happy happy all the way.

CHEWYchewy brought me happiness too!! By providing me with my favourite sour-sour sweet!! Heeex! =p CHEWYchewy also provided me with CHINESEmusic during boring free chi lesson!! =))) ILOVECHEWYchewy!!!!. <3<3<3

then when I went online…talked to eyecandy…for shortshort while.. but he was away after promising me to check somethings for me..but I talked to him lor…after sooo long!

And my girlaye is gonna tell erhemerhem thingthing. Haa…good luck!! Make me so happy. Coz she finally decided to muster her courage worhs! Heeex..

Happyhappy!!

**begin with the end in mind** =)

Sometimes I just don’t understand life. Why mux we always treasure the person who doesn deserve to be treasured. Why mux we always not treasure the people who deserve to be treasured?

Today was so vexing.. luckily, today no tuto if not I think ill be dead la. Supposed to wake up at 11.30pm last nite to start my mugging marathon which was supposed to last for 7 hrs. but I ended up sleeping that 7 hrs away! Wtf sia! I cnt believe it!! Why did I jux SLEEP MY TIME AWAY!!!????. I was so pissed with myself la!

Den when I was in sch, receive msg from that someone. Ask me if it was ok he link me and tag. Pls la. I mean who can stop u can? And I was quite pissed with myself still at that time for wasting my bloody time sleeping. I was seriously irritated. Plus I didn bring my stupid chi txtbk. Borrowed from cera. And in the end stupid teacher nv use. And somemore, I made such careless mistakes in my chi test! Damn!! :’(

Heck that la. The thing is my girl, Li Lin msged me told me her troubles.

** my girl. Don’t be sad kkays. Jux heck them. Coz I noe and you noe who you like. So don’t bother about them kkays. The more you bother the more you think the more you’re sad. Jux leave them alone. I believe you’ll survive it!! And don care what *** said kkays. She was like grrrr. Heck her. She being so ass-holey. Loves you lots! **

yea. I just don’t understand why some ppl jux don cnt stop spreading scandals, its as if without spreading scandals they cnt be whole. Esp if they noe the scandal is so not true. GET A LIFE LA PEOPLE!!. esp tat FRIEND I didn’t expect you to say that lar. It was damn effing bad. U jux dunno how to treasure your best friends la!

And why did I quarrel with them yest? Why did I even lose my temper. It was jux such a small thing. Why didn I control my temper? Shit! And now, when im there, im like freakin pissed out, upset.

I cnt go back to my hide-out tml. Ill miss momma, grandmomma, darling juniors. =(

I feel as if my life’s upside-down. But on a bright side, I LOVE MY EYE-GANG!!!. thank you my lovely EYES!! =))))

If it is meant to be, it will be. *ilu

Sch was so sucky today…never felt so emo ever since getting to noe my gang in 12/07… I felt like real upset over dunno what thing… jux cnt pintpoint out the cause of it. Its like I jux feel like shutting my gap today… had to force myself to talk to bridget and chewy they all to stop myself from emo`ing… I duunno why… class time also like quite slack… every free time, I would be there slumping over my table, staring into nowhere. Den physics prac was real bad… I didn even noe wtf I was doing… like I was lost in another world… I wasn even paying attention to whatever was going on… this feeling sux la… for like 1 wk+ I’ve not been emo`ing…now like tat…I seriously feel myself jux dropping into a never-ending hole of emotions la… guess it was ****** who was like sitting almost beside me in the morn la… eff.

And today was yunnan ocip interview…I think it’s a goner lorhs… I didn even noe what nonsense I was talking… shit.

Why did I ever get myself into this shit la. Everyday in tj is like study, laugh, feel stupid, eat and the cycle goes on. Why did I even want to come to tj. I shld have happily gone NYP to study nursing… get my effing diploma… go work and get an effing schlorship to uni. Why did I even comply to everyone’s wish for me to get into a bloody jc. Grrrrrrrghs. Im so screwed up, stressed up, pissed off. Like to hell with them. I really feel like dropping out of sch… I wldn need to be mugging my ass off now. I cld be earning $$ giving tuition, practicing my piano like noone’s business…shopping with dear like forever. Damn.

And to add on further, dumdum panda is like starting to talk to me again…making me miss the past again…plus the load of helping zong get his notes… and the fact that im seeing that someone everyday in sch is like making me further losing focus…

Everyone is like trying to mug their ass off and here I am, thinking of giving up everything. Why didn I treasure my time in mj? Why didn I make myself enjoy myself in mj? Why did I think of coming to tj? Why didn I go mj? Shitshitshit. I miss mj. Miss phobos. Miss eric kua. Miss tk. Miss 4b. miss mama. Sighs.

Im going to emo and mug my effing ass off soon. Shit. There’s pe tml. I have to wear that effing sleveless tee. And show my effing flabby arms. Thanks lots.

solitude is good

Life’s been a swirl of feelings.

fun

nothing’s not fun with my lovely gang in twelve07. hee. Esp ELI a.k.a CHEWY. they bring me laughter and joy in the boring classes, boring breaks. Haa they make me feel welcomed in the class. Yay! Sch has been fun since. =D

stress

sch’s been really stressful. Cnt really catch up with the lessons. Haix. Always feel so stupid in class lor. Really regret not staying for the whole PAE. Haa. Really hope I can catch up la. If not I think ill most likely go poly after year1. haix

emo

I’ve been missing my darlings in TK. my dearMy psycho gang. my squad. my makan gang. thou I jux saw lilin, kimkim, leemin, makan gang, dear last week, im missing them alrd. =( I miss the fun times with them. I miss the emo times with them. I miss the silent times with them. I miss every moment with them. Esp dear, those few days keep going out with her, then now, all suddenly cnt go out, feel so weird. Haix. Emo.emo.

I also dunno what to write… some photos bahs. =)

Im loving this line; each restless heart beats so imperfectly. How I wish hell be by my side all the time. *