♥ Thursday, 31 January 2008.
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the last day of jan08 got better as the day passed.i woke up feeling really sad again coz i saw a sad nick from him yest.yeaa. i'm that affected..fell asleep on the bus ride to work.didn really sleep well coz my mind was supersuper active.reached busstop, walked to office. saw yh at first, then walk closer, saw the bitch. rawrs.then i totally didn talk la.i was still thinking abt him, not yh duhwork work work,msged loser coz i was feeling real emo.and he pei-ed me throughout my emo perioduntil my day got better.thanks loser!took loser's advice and msged him.finally knew the reason.and i cheered up looking at his msg.it wasn much. but i had fun with him joking abt his boss! ayeaye!simplicity laa. simple fun. that's how simple we can be. muahaha.... ...then when work was ending..daddy called me to tell me that he was picking me up! yay!and he was going to collect the lappie he ordered when he renewed the internet contract! yayyay!!so NOW, i have my lappie!! weee~thou its not working yet, and its rather big. i don really care!I GOT A LAPPIE!! WEEEEE~lols.... ...i don't know where i stand in your heart boy. but i want you to know, that you're no 1, tgt with my gfs. i'll ps neither you nor them. serious. everytime i msg you and see your reply, i smile. coz i know, you want me to. somehow, your smile, your optimism keeps replaying in me and i always have the urge to do so too. and sometimes i do. i try to keep it up everyday. because i know, when the day comes, i'm gonna lose you. i'll have to let go when the day comes. and though it will hurt, i know we'll be free after that. i no longer have to yearn and wait for your msges, no longer need to wait for you to come online, no longer need to anticipate your date.i guess letting go is part and parcel of the game we're playing. so let me enjoy this last stretch of happiness, sadness, laughters, tears, longing.because ilu.... ...and since today is the last day of jan, i shall reflect on my month. i was totally a wreck this month i think. emoemoemo and workworkwork. nothing much other than those. spending hours staring at the comp for 10 hrs a day. jan08 feels like a failure. it passed so quickly can. like in the blink of an eye. it felt like yest that i was doing hw for jie on nyd.jan08. hopefully the decisions i made will be right.as i move on to feb 08, i want to make more right decisions. to make living even more meaningful. to emo less. to practice my piano harder. to stop spending so much time online. to sleep earlier. to smile more.i want feb08 to be a better one than jan08!!~~~did i mention that nightmare is ever so wols.. he has the memory of a brother bear.. short memory.. lousy nightmare!! muahaha.. he doesn get the point of my previous para for him lor.. its bolded somemore.. zomg la. ehh nightmare.. look look look laa. how you mj w/o looking one nia! haha.. anw, all the best for ur FYs kkays!! rawrs!! =p=p=p'and LOVE's not online!! :(( i cnt talk to her. nvm, shall talk to her non-stop tml!! and camwhore!!DEAR!! when's ur turn huh!?and tues with psychos.zomgg. i don't want to go to work tml la.. that yh not at prinsep lehhs, he wasn today alrd la.. sadsad. but i'm meeting him for lunch tml! muahaha.. coz, lunch w/o him is boring coz i'll zibi. lols. =.=i'm too lazy to post pics la..I MISS DEAR!!I MISS LOVE!!I MISS EYEGANG!!I MISS PSYCHOS!!I MISS MAKAN!!zomg.. can i meet them all!!!! i love you ppl!!!i still want a gor..kor..elder brother..
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i just random-ed with nightmare again. ok. he's not that wols after all. thanks for the offer nightmare! its ok really! come for squad outing ok!! wee~ nightmare's nice gor la.. but he's NIGHTMARE!! wee! ok its real random. coz i'm yippe hopiiee now! tml meeting love, then maybe dear coming also!! dear comecomecome!! weeee~ and i cnt wait for wkends.. really. yipppeeee!!
tom and JERRY ain't to big for us yea!Labels: daily random
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