was late for work. worked like mad. laughed like mad. all to cover up that tinge of regret.
after work 36-ed down to PP met up with qi, kim, dear. shopped. bought a pink dress for 8bucks. muahaha. qi and kim bought pink tops too. hehx. shared venezia's lemon and tiramisu ice cream with them. sat at the benches and talked. miss this kindda times. reminds me of the other time at suntec B&J!!! walked with kim to busstop to bus home. i waited for the bus for goddamn half hr can. by the time i got home was like 11pm. fell asleep emo-ish.
today. woke up real tired. went to work. work. went to grandma's hse for lunch fell aslepp waiting for mummy. home now. going to grandma's hse again later.
wore my new pink dress bought yest.it was bought for this purpose ok. to wear to work, coz we're supposed to wear pink/red but i wore a black tee underneath la. too formal alrd.
emoemoemo i wonder if i should have sent you that email. really. i totally regret it. it is so left hanging there and i have no idea what you are feeling like now. coz i feel like shit. i dunno how that will affect our friendship and relationship. i really mean it that if everything fails, i still want to be your best friend. coz that was our promise in the first place. i have never regretted loving you before. coz i really had the greatest times when we interacted. after all these, i guess.. i'm still unable to get over you. i'm still unable to make myself not love you. i'm just so weak. i'm just not good enough for you. i don't have the optimism that you have. but i'll try. no matter how long it takes. coz i guess.. maybe we're much better off as friends ba.
