♥ Friday, 15 February 2008.
> mummy not so dearest <
thank you. =D
for the enlightenment.
D友e泽s He realised and he learned. said:
don't.. don't ever give up the chance to change one's mind.
rmb to use creative means to communicate.
i saw this when i came online today.
hehheh.
and the person in subject was my..mummy.
lols
i was chatting with him online.
and i told him how i got scolded by mummy for wasting money and buying her a rose for vday.
i bought it for her coz she was complaining that my neighbour bought flowers for his wife.
and she scolded me. =((
surprisingly, and for the first time,
someone told me.. "expected reaction given your mum's character"
for ever so long, no one has ever said that to me abt my mum.
whats more from des, who came into contact with my mum due to work.
most of my friends, esp childhood friends, know that my mum is this super strict and fierce woman. she's really critical about my friends, though she may seem friendly in front of them. which is why, most of the time, i don't bring friends home, and if i do, its when she isn home. coz i refuse to let my friends be exposed to my mum's superficiality.
to me, i have this love-hate relation with my mum.
she can be the biggest bitch on earth. she nags like there's no tml early in the morning. and the thing is she brings in random stuff, which makes it even more irritating esp in the morning when i'm still half asleep. and she's super particular about the friends i make. if she doesn like a friend of mine, whenever i say i'm going out with that person, she'll nag and nag and nag, and remind me of the person whatever doings which SHE doesn like. annd she's forever complaining that i don't behave like a girl. i dont sit properly, i don't talk politely and use vulgar language. and when i talk to guys, i behave as if i'm a cheap girl. like wtf. at most when i talk to guys, i talk like a guy and whack them. and i get scolded because of that. so recently, i nv tell my mumabout my friends anymore. coz she's sure to get critical and all. AND, ever since i started work, she keeps irritating me by saying im bound to be late for poly everyday coz i spend too much time in the toilet dressing up, for now, work. lols. and oh ya, she complains that i'm like spending alot of $$ ever since i started work. zomg. i try to eat cheap everyday, not go shopping during lunch/after work. i head home almost everyday after work. like =.=
despite all those, i love my mum lots. i get more freedom with her. she lets me plan my own time out and my supposed-time-home is rubber. hehx. she's real cute when she tries to use those cheem chinese idoims when she talks. and even though she doesn show concern for me normally, can always see that there's that concern there. and when i shut myself out from her and my dad, she's able to get her friends to ask me. which can be quite sweet sometimes. and because of her monetary control, i'm still not the spender i can be. and because of her strictness, i'm still not that alcohol freak i think i can be.
therefore, even though her bad points totally outweigh her plus points, i still love her la.she's my mummy afterall. although something i still will not do now, is to let her into my personal life. because it'd be ruined if i do. i refuse to share with her my troubles and sadness, my happiness. which is also why, i refuse to tell her what me and my friends talk about everytime. maybe even when i get a bf, she'll nv know what the status and my feelings are. coz i guess, in my family, there's this respect for us to keep our emotions to ourselves. lols
i dunno why i typed all those above. but yeaa.
and this is why recently, everytime i have problems with my mum, i always turn to des. he has this way to make me understand my mum's actions. all these despite the fact that my mum doesn like him. he's the best man! =DD
so much ramblings. shall go ramble at my pianoo.Labels: family
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