i deleted a chunk of words from my previous post. just didn feel like putting it there to spoil everything that is less-than-perfect.
had a nice talk with dear when we went out with jonk, bzp, qite, mai, zong, pz, nif, melvin. they were talking and i had lil talk with dear.
as i talked to her
i realised that i have lost trust in almost everyone.
except dear and nightmare.
even best friends do not earn this trust.
i am so afraid someone will betrayme someday.
and i realised that guys do not seem as simple as they seem.
im traumatised.
i hate it when i go all emo.
all coz of friendship and guys.
they're just part of my life.
yet they have the most impact on my life.
even more than studies.
sux.
sometimes i wonder if everything and everyone around me is the real them.
or are they just facades that make them seem so much a better person.
i love going out with dear.
coz i can tell dear everything.
coz i can trust dear.
coz i cannot trust other people.
someone told me this before.
it is not easy to trust, yet so easy to not trust.
funny as it is, i think it is so true.
it is not easy to trust others.
yet, to not trust, it takes such lil effort.
today was a bad day turned good, thanks to the night!!
14th it shall be people!