♥ Sunday, 21 October 2007.
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facade: a superficial appearance or illusion of somethingi always use the word.yet i nv really went to find out what it really means.now i know.my smiles are just a facade.i trick people with my smiles.they get tricked by my facade.they think i am a happy girl.i am not.seriously not.i've lost alot of things before.familyfriendsimpt thingsbut i guess the 'thing' i lost that caused my change most dramatically washimnone other than him.i actually wanted to talk to him just nowbut there was this pulling forcesometime restraining myself to talk to him.maybe i can no longer talk to him.maybe we can no longer be friends.maybe liking him was wrong in the first place.maybe even knowing him was wrong in the first place.everything is haywire.what an ironythere's cg outing tml.yet i have to go to ah-ma's hse.hopefully, they'll have dinnerthen, i will join them.pls do, twelve.one of the last.i've been lying all these while.about how i feel about everything going by me.about how i view those things you told me.i shall continue indulging in the pain of my self-caused ulcer.
[ ♥ LIL SUPERHERO GIRL @ 00:23 ]
