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♥ Saturday, 29 September 2007.

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photos with courtesy of hayden's blog!




yes!! tk made it again!! band 3.. SCHOOL EXCELLENCE AWARD!!
I FEEL SOSOSO PROUD TO BE A TKsian!!
















arghs.

im not supposed to be here.

i am supposed to study physics.

but nothing can get into my head.

all i think of is MONDAY!! XD XD

and tuesday, when i'll be meeting my girl.. XD


shall pay attention during tuition later.

less than 24 hrs, i'll be free..



and gosh, i cannot wait for nightmare's good stuff. sense the sarcasm

im off!!



sometimes taking the first step is not as bad as i think. (: thanks girl

♥ Friday, 28 September 2007.

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♥ .

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1 more paper.
hanging there.

long overdued pictures..

the class + miss li + miss koh

the class. sawadika!

the girls of twelve

abstract

mama!

the girls with miss li

yuen, me, memi, fel

the class

memi, jia lin

memi, yuen

memi, fel

eli,yuen,bridget,jialin,pris,fel,memi

spastic

spastic

memi, eli

memi, mama

WE MISS YOU MEMI!!

原来你什么都不想要 - A*mei


我知道这样不好
也知道你的爱只能那么少
我只有不停地要
要到你想逃
泪湿的枕头晒干就好
眼泪在你的心里只是无理取闹
以为在你身后
是我我一辈子的骄傲
原来你什么都不想要
我不要你的呵护你的玫瑰
只要你好好久久爱我一遍
就算虚荣也好贪心也好
哪个女人对爱不自私不奢望
我不要你的承诺不要你的永远
只要你真真切切爱我一遍
就算虚荣也好贪心也好
最怕你把沉默当做对我的回答
原来你什么都不想要




i love the late night msging with my lovely girl
i will find that courage soon

its gonna be freedom soon!
town with clique soon!!

♥ Thursday, 27 September 2007.

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why doesnt hard work pay off?



I Love You - Chen Wei Lian



i love you
所以只能说声对不起
任何藉口都没有

i love you
已来不及好好去珍惜
后悔很多

不该让你无辜流下失措的泪
心碎认识你陌生的世界
空气中回荡的笑语早已经断绝
多想能在和你梦里爱多一次

很沉重看你走着每一步
它应该是幸福的路
狠心推开你
像你离得无反顾

你身上纹着我给你的笑
对我绝美的惩罚
想问已无法
原来曾经拥有过
还比失去痛苦

i love you
对你的挚爱从不曾改变
要你快乐

i love you
好想对你说却来不及
后悔已太多

不该让你无辜流下失措的泪
心碎认识你陌生的世界
空气中回荡的笑语早已经断绝
多想能在和你梦里爱多一次

很沉重看你走着每一步
它应该是幸福的路
狠心推开你
是挽不回的错误

你心上纹着我给你的笑
对我绝美的惩罚
想问我无法
原来曾经拥有过
远比失去痛苦

我身上永远烙着你的笑
那么绝美的惩罚
想问我无法
原来曾经拥有过
还比失去痛苦


tired

♥ Wednesday, 26 September 2007.

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2 paper down! (:

gp was rather shocking..
can any one tell me why do we need zoos. what crap
econs case study was rather ok. or i think.
essay was yucks.


tml's maths. the subject i am worried about.
i cannot afford to fail it.
i'm so afraid that i will cry when i see the paper.
when i've been crying over the past few days coz i seriously cnt do maths.
BUT, i've just had a tuition session with LOVE.
hopefully it'll go all alright tml.


i've been crying for the past few days.
i feel real stressed.
i haven't broken down due to exams in a very long time.
its all coming back.
i cnt help but just tear whenever i get a wrong ans.


i cnt wait for promos to be over.
i have to hang in there.
its so super tough.
i'm like losing my grip.
and thats why im here.
i feel lost.


its all coming back.
the heartrace when i see him online.
i don't have the courage girl.
i cnt bring myself to just say hi.
i'm just a coward.
someone who just hides away when the chance pops up.
i need the nightmare now. ha.. paopaothenightmare.


迷路兵-我为什么还爱你



一天过一天 明天再见
这是你每次说的 一直都没有改变
你的无奈 我知道你的心已不在
放开 这是最好的决定

你的爱 已不在 我为什么还在这发呆

我为什么还爱你 为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因 你狠心把我丢在这里
我为什么还爱你 为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因 你狠心丢我在 这里

一天过一天 明天再见
这是你每次说的 一直都没有改变
你的无奈 我知道你的心已不在
放开 这是最好的决定

你的爱 已不在 我为什么还在这发呆

我为什么还爱你 为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因 你狠心把我丢在这里
我为什么还爱你 为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因 你狠心丢我在 这里

我为什么还爱你 为什么还想着你 (想着你)
不是我不放弃
是什么原因 你狠心把我丢在这里
我为什么还爱你 为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因 你狠心丢我在 这里


i miss his talks.
i know i cnt.


rawrs.
i shall study chi now.

MONDAY HERE I COME..

DEAR's 17th coming soon!! ((:

♥ Sunday, 23 September 2007.

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broken.

♥ Wednesday, 19 September 2007.

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♥ Monday, 17 September 2007.

> =) 8 days <

I. PASSED. MY. GRADE. 7. PRACTICAL. WITH. MERIT!!!

yayyay!! I DID IT!!
finally, after those crazy moments and cries
it has paid off.
MERIT!!
even thunderthigh didn even pass. hehx


guess its a boost.
but i still have to get down to real serious work.
MUGGING!!!

8 MORE DAYS TO PROMOS!!

i've been staying out to mug these few days.
hope my mugging really pays off.

study break will be spent in woodlands. haha.
no distraction. maybe except the tv.
its all about determination.
i can do it, and pass promos!!
i can carry on with my 4 H2!!


我可以


寄 没有地址得信
这样得情绪 有种距离
你 放著谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情 能不能说给我听
雨 下得好安静
是不是你偷偷在哭泣
是不是你偷偷在哭泣
幸福 真的不容易
在你得背景 有我爱你~
我可以 陪你去看星星 不用再多说明 我就要和你在一起
我不想 又再 1 次和你分离
我多麼想每一次的美丽 是因为你
情 没有地址得信
这样的情绪 有种距离
你 放著谁得歌曲
是怎样的心情 能不能说给我听
雨 下的好安静
是不是你 偷偷在哭泣
幸福 他真的不容易
在你得背景 有我爱你
我可以 陪你去看星星 不用多说明
我就要和你在一起 我不想又在一次和你分离
我多麼想每一次的美丽 是因为你
我可以 陪你去看星星 不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起 我不想 又再ㄧ次和你分离
我多麼想每一次得美丽 是因为你


back to the mugging..
don miss me!!

♥ Friday, 14 September 2007.

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♥ Wednesday, 12 September 2007.

> 12 days <

its only 12 days to promos!! YES!!! 12!!!
omg.. its like so damn damn damn soon.. and i am so not done with revision..
and i don't even know why i'm here

i guess i really have to study hard!!
REAL HARD!!!

so i think.. i won't be coming back soon.
i need to ace promos.
not just pass them.

i'll miss blogging :(



and memi is leaving tml.
clique cried.. we don't want to say goodbye..
the last lunch..the last batch of photos..
clique's poning sch tml to send memi off.
MEMI! WE LOVE YOU!!!



DEAR!! I MISS YOU!! i want to have subway and this fashion with you!!
after my promos okiex DEAR..


song of the post

七月七日情 - xu hui xin



说了再见是否就能不再想念
说了抱歉是否就能理解了一切
眼泪代替你亲吻我的脸
我的世界忽然冰天白雪
拇指之间还残留你的昨天
一片一片怎么听见完全

七月七日情
忽然下起了大雪
不敢睁开眼希望是我的幻觉
我站在地球边眼睁睁看着雪
覆盖你来的那条街

七月七日情
黑夜忽然变白天我失去知觉
看着相爱的极限
我望着地平线天空无际无边
听不见你导演

拇指之间还残留你的昨天
一片一片怎么听见完全

七月七日情
忽然下起了大雪
不敢睁开眼希望是我的幻觉
我站在地球边眼睁睁看着雪
覆盖你来的那条街

七月七日情
黑夜忽然变白天我失去知觉
看着相爱的极限
我望着地平线天空无际无边
听不见你导演

七月七日情
忽然下起了大雪
不敢睁开眼希望是我的幻觉
我站在地球边
眼睁睁看着雪覆盖
你来的那条街

七月七日情
我失去知觉
天空无际无边

♥ Sunday, 9 September 2007.

> goodbyes <

i hate goodbyes.
i detest goodbyes.
i abhor goodbyes.

all sorts of goodbyes.
short term.
long term.
to friends.
to family.
to everyone close.


5 years ago, it was grandpa.
then it was great-grandpa.
then recently, him.
4 months ago, eugenia went away.
last month, granduncle.
this month, memi is going away.


i just don't understand why people must leave.
why can't we all stay together.
why can't we all go together.
why can't we not say goodbye.

i miss them.
everytime, i feel so reluctant to speak the word.
the urge to have them back is so strong.
yet we can do nothing.


i just got to know memi for just about 6 months.
and now, its almost time to part.
i don't want.
i still want the fun with her.
the laughs with her.
the silly moments with her.
the bhb moments with her.
without her, the clique is no longer complete.
i miss memi.
i want memi to stay!


to match this, the song for the post,



离开了 by kangkang.



i love my lovely girl forever!
and dear too!!


off to rush the presents for memi.
and clock some hours on the books.

♥ Saturday, 8 September 2007.

> i need some motivation... <

i love to cry,
i always cry,
i will not stop crying.

i wasted my day again. watched like 2 episodes of whywhylove. studied a lil of econs and i'm back on the internet again.
i really need to get started. the tv at home is spoiled. so thats one distraction down. i just need to conquer the internet and that lazy mind.
shall stay in school everyday to mug. seriously. i don't want to fail. neither do i want to scrape through.
i may seem indifferent on the outside. but how many knows how i really feel inside. no one knows, maybe except eli :)




i am so hooked to the song 单身潜逃 by penny

我没有你想像中那么 坚强
我只是擅长用微笑去伪装　不是吗
我没有你形容的那么勇敢
我偶尔也会慌

我也和你一样　曾经年少轻狂
受了一点伤
我们都是一样　相信永远不远
但坚持却有点难 Oh

就让记忆中的爱慢慢烧
烧痛了我们就逃
带着现实的铐
摺叠我剩余的微笑
通往没有你的轨道

就让记忆中的你慢慢老
老去了谁也得不到 Ao
带着我的祈祷摺叠我累积的问号
开始一次的单身潜逃
Mmmm~

我没有你想像中那么 坚强
我只是擅长用微笑去伪装　不是吗
我没有你形容的那么勇敢
我偶尔也会慌

我也和你一样　曾经年少轻狂
受了一点伤
我们都是一样　相信永远不远
但坚持却有点难

就让记忆中的爱慢慢烧
烧痛了我们就逃带着现实的铐
摺叠我剩余的微笑
通往没有你的轨道

就让记忆中的你慢慢老
老去了谁也得不到 Ao
带着我的祈祷摺叠我累积的问号
开始一次的单身潜逃
Ah Ha~O Oh No No No

就让记忆中的爱慢慢烧
烧痛了我们就逃
带着现实的铐
摺叠我剩余的微笑
通往没有你的轨道

就让记忆中的你慢慢老
老去了谁也得不到 Ao
带着我的祈祷
摺叠我累积的问号
开始一次的单身潜逃

带着我的祈祷
摺叠我累积的问号
开始一次的 单身潜逃



talking to eli really brings back lots of hurt but its a sort of release for me i guess.
shall go back to the books.



& taste the bitter to appreciate the sweet

♥ Friday, 7 September 2007.

> going... <

I thought that after each episode, I would be able to learn how to be strong and not to cry.
Yet time and again, when it comes to me, I am unable to hold back the disappointment.
I really need to learn.
I really need someone to teach me to be strong.


Just the weekends and the hols will be over. It is like the worst hols I have ever had. Falling sick was not in my plans. Yet it just caught me like that. It sux. Thanks to the stomach flu, I could not even concentrate on studying and it really affected me yest and today.

I have been asking myself since last week. Asking why I am in the jc system. Why I am holding on to the jc system. Is it because of my parents. Or my friends. Or my teachers. Or my future. I feel really tired and stressed amongst all other things. I see everyone around me all working so hard, yet I take things real easy. Will this even be a repeat of last year, where last minute hard work pays off.


The fun is wearing off.
The grip is no longer as tight.
I feel myself slipping off the slope.
I feel the whole world crashing already.

Noone really knows how I really feel deep inside
Coz I myself do not even know
What do I even want in the end
What is it that I want to see after all the hard work

I guess the truth is hidden from me
I need the support that I used to have
The support that is lost

I guess promos will be the last test for me
Fail it and I will leave the crazy place
For somewhere which might hold a brighter future for me

For now
I guess
Its really a goodbye to everything
And a big yell for the books

♥ Monday, 3 September 2007.

> music <

Got this thing from Kenny.. since I am not mugging, shall do it


1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Tag 6 people at their tag boards to ask them to do this!
5. Bold the questions and with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.


How are you feeling today?
lei by mi lu bing
sad? Think I am. Later got tuition. No dear :(

Will you get far in life?
ai qing ping lu
I dunno. Maybe? I dunno lehhs


Will you get married?
hao yan lei, huai yan lei by Vivian hsu
maybe, maybe not. Haha

What's your best friend's theme song?
ben lai by tong en
my best friend has lots of regrets?

What's the story of your life?
luo ye gui gen by lee hom
ermm.. settling down?

What was primary school like?
ru guo ni ye ting shuo by a*mei
have you heard? No, I have not =.=

How can you get ahead in life?
would you be there by redwan ali
I need someone to be there?

What is the best thing about your friends?
qin ai de ni wei shen me bu zai shen bian by jiang mei qi
they are always not beside me? No link..

What's in store for this weekend?
cuo le zai cuo by zhang dong liang
its all gonna be wrong. Maybe I won study..

What song describes you?
zhu ti qu by lin yu zhong.
I am my own song? I am who I am? Haha

How is your life going?
tian shi by wu yue tian

PERFECTO? As if

What song will they play at your funeral?
ke yi bu ke yi by zhuo wen xuan
can they see me again? Haha

How does the world see you?
can fei by wu ke qun
I am a useful person, crippling the use of resources..

Will you have a happy life?
wo bu xiang wang ji ni by guo jing
no, coz I cnt forget that person

What do your friends really think of you?
tian shi ji du de shen huo by cao ge
they are jealous of my life?

Do people secretly lust for you?
our story by tension
how do I noe? Im supposed to write for you to know

What should you do with your life?
da nan ren xiao nu hai by JJ lin

Be a xiao nu hai

Will you ever have children?
xiao shou la da shou by liang jing ru
should be.

tagged:
LiLin
Elizabeth
Ambrose sir
Kenneth
YiYan
koktong

♥ Saturday, 1 September 2007.

> love for no other girls. <

HAPPY TEACHERS’ DAY!!

Mrsgoh.misschoo.missong.mdmong.misswang.mdmhalilah.mrschee.
mrstan.mrtan.mrsquek.mrwee.misssri.mrv.tan.msmsarina.liulaoshi.misskoh.
sososomanymore.

Concert at tj was super. Loved it lots. Went back to tk. Found back so many fond memories. Bussed down to bugis. Ate at pastamania. Crapped lots. Tried clothes. Camwhored at the toilet at NLB. Haha.

Photos.

Going to work tml. As in work and earn money. At EXPO. Haha. For a day. Moneymoneymoney..

how I wish I could wish you happy teachers’ day too. You taught me lots of life skills. You taught me how to cope with the worries. Happy teachers’ day. =)

I love my girls.