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♥ Sunday, 29 July 2007.

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♥ Friday, 27 July 2007.

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It is finally over, and I wish to mention anything about it anymore.

Went shopping with mummy dearest on wed. I swear she was in spending mode ok. i saw things that I liked and she went all, go try and want to buy not. Well. Maybe except for my FBTs. I shall get daddy to get them for me. =p I mentioned casually that my wallet was spoilt and she was like den where you want to buy. Sadly, THE WALLET SHOP was not open, I could not get my lovely wallet. Den walk walk walk, passed by FILA, she pulled me in, and asked me if I want polos. So she bought for US a white and a black princess-sleeved polo, and a dark purple trimmed polo. And she actually asked me if I wanted to get a bag to bring out shopping!! HAHA. I love mummy!! I didn get one thou, nothing nice, but I have set my eyes on the fila tote thou. Hehex. Wanted to get shorts from G2000, but like not very nice, so in the end, nothing. But, she promised me to get that off-shoulder top for me. It was on offer la. When we went to bedok, we even asked me to see if got those tote bags I like at the pasar malam. Didn really see any nice ones. Nvm. Another time. ILOVEMUMMY!!

Met with DEAR after that. Studied with DEAR, bzp, russel, Kenneth, marky.. HAHA. Quite distracting laa.. coz they kept talking and stuff. But after they left, it was so much better, thou me and DEAR started talking. After studying, we Left SUBWAY and just sat on the kerb outside sing post and started talking. It was real peaceful and all, like DEAR said, QUALITY TIME. ILOVEDEAR. will go out study somemore with DEAR. <3


Thrus was rather laughy and all, with the harry potter look alike teacher, who self-proclaimed herself as mother hen. Lolls. Volunteered to be scribe for OCIP, and tortured myself with all their indecisiveness and all. Didi starved me when I reached home, by not allowing me to eat until parents came home. What an ass.

Friday was emo-y and all. I mostly shut myself out from everything, and listened in class. Oh ya. I got like 11 for Econs ass-say test. FAILED BY .5 MARK. can you believe it! Like WTF. I studied like damn hard for it. Even fang yun got 16 and I taught her the concepts lor. I am such a loser.

Chatted with LOVELY GIRL yest. Told her some stuff happening in sch to me. I just LOVE talking to her, coz she is always able to keep me going. 11 aug. we shall meet and ENJOY!!

Music lesson is like so fun, she practically wanted to smack me, coz I forgot a lot of things and gave stupid ans. Ended up laughing like nobody s business. Haha. Had a small chat with Joshua just now. Thanks guy. =)

maybe I really changed after the episode. Maybe it is just that I have always been like that and it is just that they have not seen it. It could be my selfishness. Its could be my stupid mind. It could be my longing for my lovelies. It could be just me. I wouldn want to lose this friendship and all. Coz they will always be there for me for the next year and on. I love you guys.

I dread Aug 1st to come. Neighbour is moving out, I don want that fat ang moh to be my neighbour. Yucks.

Oh ya. EYEgang is like having EYEgang shirt.. haha. Just FILA tees we agreed to buy together for national day. Cool. I cnt wait to go out with them and buy and wear!!


It is the emo girl again, I guess. the face. Again

♥ Tuesday, 24 July 2007.

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Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml. Tml.

You can guess how nervous and out of my mind I am now. My mind is really freaking out already. Thou this is not the first time I am taking this exam la. How many times already lor. But this is really the first time im getting all so nervous and panicky. Maybe its coz I experienced failure before, I want to do my best, and not just contend with a pass. I want at least a merit, a nv-gotten-before grade, let alone distinction. I am really placing all my hopes on my scales and pieces, I really need to ace them, to cover for my ill-prepared aural and sight reading.


If you lose hope, somehow you lose the vitality that keeps life moving, you lose that courage to be, that quality that helps you go on in spite of it all. And so today I still have a dream.

And my dream today, is to ace that monster tml. hopefully. AHHHHH!!

I will be looking forward to shopping with mummy dearest and studying with DEAR after that, so YES, I shall take it in my stride, be confident, and ace that tml. hopefully.

I pray to LORD that he will give me all the courage and luck I need tml. I pray to LORD to keep me save and sound from that nonsence-creating monster within me.


I just exercised my fingers by jamming on the keyboard. Hopefully, my fingers won get tangled tml.

Thanks to those who wished me GOOD LUCK. Love you guys!!


I shall go take my beauty sleep, thou its still a lil early. I need all the energy tml, to climb and reach that goal!

































This lovely thing;


Loves, kisses, hugs, prayers,
























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♥ Monday, 23 July 2007.

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2 more days. 1.5 more days to be exact. I really hope I can ace it. I need that boost.

Feeling a lot better already. Thanks people. Rushing EoM yest rushed all those emo-ness away, and made me realize those friends who are willing to stay by me. Adam, LiLin, Eli, Yuen, Zhaogen. Thanks guys.

JTS yest was rather fun. Laugh laugh and laugh. Bill was rather, acceptable? Haha. cnt put real value here. Joan and Liyong reads my blog!!

I LOVE TJ FAU!!!!<3

I went cheap thrilling alone after that. Bought 2 hairclips, one for myself, one for LOVE! (: and I bought black nail polish from THE FACE SHOP. I had the sudden urge to pierce my ears and rebond my hair. Haha.

Today class photo taking was COOL la. We had class shot, duh, and the special one was that we had small group shots! Super lovely ok. And even class shots had like different kind of shots. Didn get to do emo shot.
I LOVE TWELVE 07<3


Its getting nearer. I cnt wait to get it over with.
And and and,

MEET DEAR to mug!!
I LOVE DEAR!! (:

♥ Saturday, 21 July 2007.

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CONCENTRATE PRISCILLA

That was what miss fong was screaming into my ears during my FINAL lesson before WEDNESDAY, dooms day.

I seriously cldn concentrate, I also dunno why.
I can play my scales ascending for 3 octaves, then suddenly, I will get stuck at the forth. SO STUPID can. I can count and count my octaves and still play either short or extra one octave.
GIGA, my fingers felt as if they were like elephants, moving ever so slowly and clumsily. I tripped over notes, played ornaments like normal notes when they are supposed to be played faster. Miss fong said it was good articulation with inaccurate notes.
OCTOBRE, my fingers now played like ants, chords not strong enough for loudness and emphasis, and too light till as if the notes cnt be heard for the soft parts. Pedaling was disaster. Still too expressionless. All these after listening to the track for almost a million times.
JACK IN THE BOX was somehow more comforting, put my accents and speed was somehow still not up to standard.
I took like approx 3 min to play the sight-reading piece, when it was supposed only to be approx 1 min, with all the wrong notes and stuff. GREAT. Not like I passed my sigh reading during my first attempt.
AURAL was hate. I seriously cnt pitch myself and sing those damnit notes. I cnt rmb that few notes. I cnt keep with the tempo. I cnt identify the chords. I gave all crap answers.

I seriously hate this depressed demon in me. It is making me just watch day and night pass by staring at everything that zooms by me. I don feel like doing anything, thou I have TONNES to do. I always have the urge to cry, the urge to scream. Walking in the rain did nothing to help soothe that helplessness. Blasting music did nothing to help scare that demon out. I feel so useless. I hate myself for being such a lil green meanie. I hate myself for being a selfish friend. I wish I could gorge and not care about my fucking weight. I hate myself for just laughing at people when I myself is a worse replica than her. why not just say I HATE EVERY BIT OF ME!! My ambitiousness, my jealousness, my selfishness, my dumbness, my fatiness, EVERYTHING.


I shall go immerse my broken soul in those pieces that I will screw on Wednesday. And stress myself and pull out all my hair while preparing for promos in sept, GRD8 prac in feb08, GRD8 theory in mar08.

you may not know it is your fault, or rather it is not even your fault but sometimes I just want to say I hate you to you, for causing me misery. Fine.i am pushing blame on you. Its all yourmy fault

Pls pray that I won fail it again, coz I won be able to take it and that will be the last you will see of me.

Disappearing into thin air is what I really want to do now.

♥ Thursday, 19 July 2007.

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Taking a break from the everyday ‘school-mug-piano-mug-sleep’ routine. Taking a break from the random things in a week.

Time seems to be flying past like nobody s business. And as time flies, my brain seems to be flying back to me too. Haha. And as time flies, my emo-ism seems to be flying back to me. I feel out of my world, my crazy world. I feel as if I shut myself out of my environment, living in my own lonely world.

Apart from the usual non-stop gossip with yuen, I have been so much attentive in class and lectures. I make it a point not to sleep and listen. Hurray me!

And I found a perfect place to mug in peace. really rather peaceful. Not much noise, just-right air con, comfy seats. Lovely. I shall not divulge where it is. Coz its gonna be where ill be holing myself up after sch on most days. HAHA. Only LOVE and PIG noes where it is. Right LOVE.

And, the most interesting thing in these 4 days is that I donated blood. TODAY! Haha. Ok. I forged dad s signature for the parents consent form. Haha. Coz I thot they wouldn allow me to. BUT, when I told them at night, they were like, WA, you so brave mehhs. Good good. Lovely mummy and daddy. Blood donation isn that pain la, rather peaceful? Haha. I WANT TO BE A REGULAR DONOR!! I want to save lifes!! Haha.

Nothing much, but I have to say LOVELY GIRL, for keeping me company when I was seriously very emo, for being there for me.
LOVE for listening to my crap and giving me crap that made me smile and peiing me to mug.
YUEN for making me feel lessons pass faster by gossiping with me.
BRIDGET for making me less sad, peiing me everywhere.
EYEGANG for boomboombooming with me!
LAMLAM for everything
DUMBDUMBLOSER for suaning me and giving me entertainment.
DEAR for making her presense here, giving me some sanity, not saying anything for losing the precious.
AUNTY MAMA for all the durians.
MUMMY AND DADDY for not scolding me and giving me positive comments when they read my ugly report slip.

Going to emo at airport with HaoNing tml. I miss her and I really need someone to emo with me.
Have to go for parent-teacher-dialogue tml. Sighs. And I have to write the study plan for lao shi.
JTS on Sunday. SWENSONS can. The seniors are like damn privileged la. I will go broke.
GRD 7 PRAC ON WED!! im still a lil unprepared and raw. Im really scared. I don want to fail again. I need to move on to GRD8 after this. Wish me luck.


I shall go back into my own world. I think I really do need some time to search my soul, and ask myself what I really want, what I really feel about some things. I am really rather confused.ha.

One photo before I go,





















We were really studying on CG day, 12/07/07.

♥ Sunday, 15 July 2007.

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♥ Saturday, 7 July 2007.

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10 Random facts in a week


#1 I am officially on probation for YUNNAN OCIP. coz of #2. =p

#2 my JCT results are screwed. *hohoho.
1. PHYSICS – 34 (U)
2. CHEMISTRY – 34 (S)
3. MATHS – 35 (S)
4. ECONOMICS – 31 (S??)
5. CHINESE – 75 (A)
Nice hor. 30+ all the way! I am like PRO not. Its quite shit. But better than my own expectations ok. HAHA. Like what miss koh said, Chinese so good also no use.

#3 I have 2 LOVELY friends who kept me through the night on Friday.
Loser and lovely girl!! *hohoho. THANKS

#4 TJ had more than HALF DAY on tues. we went to school for
only 2 periods. yayness.

#5 BUDGET SHOPPING is so much more fun than shopping in town.
Bought this lovely black top for only $5. LOVE has the red one!! =)

#6 I am addicted to SUBWAY!!

#7 screwed for FAU husting alrd. Coz mrs chua is gonna ask my tutors abt
me, and I am always not paying attention in class!! Yay!! bye FAU PRESIDENT!! :’(

#8 LEO club is such a shitty PDP la. Still got what I&I. Waste my time. The teacher
is a wordo. LOVELY GIRL MUST COME FOR MY I&I OK!!

#9 I can cooktoast sausages and chicken nuggets in the oven to perfection!
After like more than 5 hrs of doing that on friday night.

#10 A lvl oral was screwed.



2 WEEKS AND 4 DAYS TO GRD 7 PRAC





sometimes I wonder if it was my fault or yours. Sometimes I wonder if I should really think abt it all over again. Sometimes I wonder if you still hold on to those memories. Sometimes I wonder if I should just forget it. Sometimes I wonder if I should try again.

LOVES

♥ Monday, 2 July 2007.

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HAPPY YOUTH DAY!!!>*thou i noe its a lil late. haha

supposed to stay home today to teach my bro, but i ended up going to town with my cousin, my aunt and bro. haha. coz my cousin had therapy so just follow lor. =.=
had the best shopping trip so far since GSS started ok. well, not that i bought lots la, just like erm..i got more freedom, and finally with someone who is willing to step into the shops with me, even thou we don plan to buy anything. and i think this is the first time i am stepping into town since the start of GSS too. oppx HAHA.
yayness! i bought this light grey and white long tee from MANGO. limited edition one. haha.. clara got one too! woo~ its nice la but the sleeve there a lil too tight. TIME TO SLIM DOWN!!! lols.


youth day quite well spent la. best so far. <3

*DEAR!! WHEN'S OUR SHOPPING TRIP!!?? thou i noe it ll be me that will not have the time. :(


tml shall mark the start of my super mugging scheme. no more long hours on the comp, no more blogging almost everyday, no more slacking, no more 7-11 pm TV. MORE daily revision, MORE attention paid in class,MORE tutorials handed in on time! yay! ILOVESTUDYING!!!




i miss dear and my lovely friends!!



- l ii n g

♥ Sunday, 1 July 2007.

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Ok. Got 3 days events to blog about and pictures.

THRUSday,28JUNE07
Nothing much la.. papers in the morning.
After last paper, me, bridget, feli, eli went to ECP in search of the bowling center. Quite far from where we alighted lor. Walk walk walk, suddenly saw SUBWAY, and I was like COOKIE, and we all impromptu walk into there for late LUNCH. Haha. There was only us and the shop people in there. We were suaku!! =p ate the cheese steak sandwich, which I shared with eli. LOVE! My bowling is seriously becoming from bad to worse ok! Opps. =X and the place was a rip-off ok. The pricing there is like before 6pm and after 6 pm. We went at like 5PLUS. so we had to pay like both prices. WA LAO! I was pissed ok. 8 plus for 2 games!! siao. Nvm liao la. *sighs. Didn get to sit at the breakwaters there coz it was drizzling. So we started walking back. And ended up didn rain lor. While walking back, we found so many playgrounds! Weee~ haha. Happy happy!!

me and LOVE with purple balls.

me and feli

the yellow bowling ball and our shoes

I am no. 3. so loser.

taken with those corner mirror at the underpass.

FRIday,29JUNE07
Met up with LiLin, Kim, Hayden at bugis. Hayden was late, so we 3 girls walked around and waited for him at PASTAMANIA. shared food and crapped. Miss those times. =) went to take neos after that! Woo~ oh ya, bought glitter bronze nail polish from MISSHA. went round shopping and saw so many many nice clothes! Ahhh! Esp from ESPRIT. 197-ed to parkway to meet HAONING for K-BOX SESSION!! weeee~ first time I sang so much ok. Sang about 40+ songs in the period of 4 hours. *hohoho. While waiting for her dad to send us home, went to parkway and bought glitter green nail polish from The Face Shop.Cool la. Pictures at kbox with haoning, shall upload another day.

us 3 girls on the bus

lilin and me

us 4!

SATurday,30JUNE07
Had music lesson in the morning. demoralizing. she didn tell me that she will be asking another grade 7 student to be at the end of my lesson so we can play for each other. Of cause I wasn prepared. I stumbled over my running notes, lost control of my dynamics, lost my speed, played wrong notes. And the damn fucking thing is I could still play it perfectly fine before the other student came. Damn. I guess I will need to practice super, super hard so there will be allowance for mistakes during the exam. *sighs.
Walked to parkway after lesson to get present for ERLINA. then, hand itchy, I went to get base coat and top coat for my nails. Ok la. It was on offer, so I just bought them. =P the glitter green polish is not quite as I expected la. Quite light, cnt really see its green.
Slacked at home, and went out to meet MAKAN GANG at city hall for dinner. Walked at least 2 rounds around the fountain and still didn noe what to eat. In the end settled for PIZZA HUT. =.= but it was fun la. Hehx. All the crap. =D after dinner went to CANDY EMPIRE!! woo~ bought the mint chocolate biscuits for mummy and gummies for bro. Hehx. Walked around. Went to IP Zone, but they didn have my polo! =( hurried msged haoning to get it for me, coz left a few days sale only! YAY!! =) didn manage to take group photo lor. That nana and lolo lor. Run away so fast!! Took a few photos with mai and changling and went home le. =) I am waiting for next month s makan!! Some place lolo is bringing us to! Yay! pics

Some random pictures

my crown belt! Yay!

the top and skirt that I LOVE so much!!

the cake my dad bought for my granddad for fathers day

the cake me, bor, clara bought for my father and her father.

my grandma with her birthday cake

FAU bbq. With our prize

while trying to start the bbq fire. That super big face at the left is the ultimate lamer cum bully, DIHUI!

stuff MEMI got the gang from Thailand

my brother s mickey mouse with my granddad s specs. =)

Yay! done! I guess I won be blogging that often alrd. Dad is gonna restrict me alrd.

To end off,
I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!