Sometimes being sick is LOVE

I finally get to hear “go get dinner for your sister” instead of “go get dinner for your brother” haha. I get to be waited on by my brother. * twists * =P

But the LOVE ends here. Nothing else goes well when you are sick.

In school, you cannot blow your nose for god sake. Because when you do, people look at you like you are an elephant. Not my fault la.

In lessons, you cannot pay proper attention and feel guilty when you sleep in lessons.

When you go back early, you have to worry about the things you miss out in sch. Like the stupid Chinese test, which they say in difficult.

When you go back early, you are not exempted from doing your chores.

When you are sick, your parents do not even ask if you are feeling better.

When you are sick, you get scolded for being sick.

When you are sick, you get criticized by your parents saying that you get sick for nothing.

Ohh. Thank you to that whoever who passed the flu bug to me. Coz now I feel like shit. Esp after what my mum said yesterday. I cried to sleep. Thank you. I cnt even rmb the last time I tried as hard as I did yest nite. Because I cried till I was left with no tears to cry. Thank you mum. For insulting me.

I seriously do not know why I cried yest. I mean she always criticize me, but I nv cried before. Yet I cried yest. I guess it was fueled by thinking of him again. Yes again. fuck.

I wanted to pon school today, but I could not think of a way to pon, so I went to sch, and suffered in sch. I had almost no voice to talk. I just felt so grumpy.

I LOVE DEAR. thanks for the msg DEAR. And loser too!

I feel like an idiot. Once and again, I keep emoing over him. I keep thinking about him. and it does not help, when someone tells me that another person likes her but she doesn like him. I felt so screwed when I heard that.

I hate being sick. Being sick gives me the excuse to skip lessons. I am back early once again, on a long tutorial day. I should really slap myself. For being such a slacker. I just want to go shopping. Throw all my stupid thoughts away. I want to go bowling. I want to stay over in school on thrus nite. I just need a night away from home.

* because when I chose to leave, I never thought that it would come back to me *