It is like 17 May 2007, 01.02 am as I am typing this post.. and I am still online.

I just completed my fucking GPP. It was supposed to be handed in yesterday, but due to some stubborn freak guy, I have to re-do part of it. And the greatest thing is that, he sent me HALF OF EACH DRAFT. like THANK YOU.

Actually, I did what I was supposed to re-do by 12.15am, and I tried to type in the names and stuff. Yeah. Act smart. And the whole template went BONKERS. everything overlapped here and there. FUCK. I had to figure out which was which can copy and paste the whole thing into a new file again. Damn. And was I was checking, I realized that feasibility and manageability in my soft copy was totally different from my hard copy. Because he sent half of each. stupid. I swear I was about to cry already. Like I am already exhausted by all the stuff left undone, to be handed in. and some people just refuse to cooperate. I feel like swearing at them in class. And finally I am done. I had to psycho myself to go on and concentrate by listening to WO KE YI BY EVAN YO. sighs.

I feel like a failure who cannot do anything for the group. C has been always doing all the stuff, refusing to let us do, and doing the stuff wrongly. I feel like strangling him!! I thought our group would be quite a nice group, BUT, C has to snatch to do everything and leave the super wrong loose ends for us to tie. And Samuel has to leave us and make space for a asshole to come in and not do work. Even feli was not at PW yesterday, which was one of the most stressed lesson. Official work file checking is like later and they do not even bother to ask if they can help. Wtf.

School has been emo, gang has been emo. I have been relying on yuen and LOVE for support. Especially yuen. Have been talking to her a lot these 2 days and I really feel much better. I do not want to see LOVE sad. Coz I feel hurt. I feel useless. I do not feel me. I do not like school.

On a lighter and happier side, I finally ordered my FBT sleeveless jersey! =) after like 2 weeks of thinking. Haha. And I AM GOING BACK TO TK ON FRI!! I cannot wait to see MDM ONG, MRS CHEE, MISS SRI, and most importantly, BF HAONING. I miss them so much.

I have decided to go out with my friends to study during the june holis. And I am planning to don my lovely TK UNIFORM and step into TK and study in the canteen and library, or even the staff room. I just need someone to study with me, give me motivation, keep me away from distractions. I really need to work hard.

I better go. Its 1.17am now, and I still have to attempt benzene tutorial. luckily its lecture day later on in school.

* I love my new blog song. It’s the chorus that attracted me *

I found my smiling eyes only when I left you.