I am such a piggie.
It’s the holidays and I am supposed to STUDY!! but I slacked my time away today. Read through my storybook until I feel asleep. Sians. Did not go swimming also. Haix.
BUT, I did my work yesterday. Went to school for maths. Then music class was laughing class. laughed a lot. She passed my C piece!! woohoo!! A piece almost done too!! =)))
Studying at airport was quite productive. But I did not manage to complete 1 ws. But good start. =)
CLARA left for KOREA yesterday night. I told myself not to cry, but I did. Even before I saw her, I knew I was going to cry. So I reminded myself time and again not to cry. But when she was with her friends, she kept looking over to me and my aunt. She was scared. And when she was about to enter the gate, she hugged us. she did not feel like leaving. I know her too well. When she went inside, waiting for her passport to be checked, she looked back at least 3 times. I could not hold back, and I cried. She has never gone overseas without us before. 8DAYS without her. =( I didn want my aunt and grandma to see that I was crying, so I wiped my tears away before talking to them. HaoNing said it was obvious I was crying. Oh whatever. I MISS CLARA!!!
you tried, and I did not bother to listen. Because I think it is screwed as it is now. If you think I do not believe you, then fuck offget lost. I will not bother to defend myself because I think you are simply over-sensitive. you can carry on thinking about what you think I think. Because I simple do not care. you control your own pea brain and like you said, I cannot convince you to change your own thinking. So go on thinking that way for all you want.
And I strongly believe that my world is filled with people who simply UNDERSTANDS and TRUSTS me. My friends are my life. And one significant missing piece will cause a HUGE upset. but if you decide to leave please go. Do not make my life a more screwed up one. If you decide to stay, simply do not try to screw my life further. NO TRUST = NO MORE.
l ii n g
i love my cousins.<3
