> O.V.E.R. <
its all over. i promise, it's over. ill get over it. ill forget it. ill forget that it ever existed. ill forget those times. i will. i promise i will.
talked to bubble for a longlong time yest nite. is i wan him to talk to me coz i was bored doing my hw. haa. while waiting for the econs ppt. =p
talked from emo to him. him as in ky. i know ive nv used his name here. its always panda and panda and more of panda. i guess its really time i come out of my shell which i used to hide my feelings in.i guess talking abt ky is like a taboo topic. i nv talk abt him with other ppl except bubble and LiLin. and yest's talk with bubble made me realise some things, which i may have known, but nv believed. things which ive nv known.
i felt a change in him, yet it wasn a change at all. i didn realise that it has been like that all the time. he was such a guy, i didn know till bubble told me.
bubble told me that loving someone is making them happy. and he didn make me happy. he doesn deserve my love. but! he was once the one who always made me happy, kept me sane and cheerful though the days. yet it changed so quickly that i cldn accept it. i waited to no avail. he made me sad after those wonderful times. i had noone to talk to; noone to turn to when i was down. all that used to be there was gone.
i guess my previous post, as compared to this post is totally an irony. i insisted that ill wait, but now im giving up. but i am
REALLY giving up. i guess i
cnt carry on this way. i
cnt carry on waiting. i
cnt carry on being sad coz of him.
i guess that simple hihi and hello yest was the last time? i dunno. but somehow i hope not. i still wan to be friends with him. maybe not.
whatever it is...all i noe is that ill stick to my stand. ill stay
strong for those who
truely love me. ill forget him. i promise!!
i even deleted all the msg histories. i noe what im supposed to do. bubble noe i noe what i am supposed to do. i won disappoint him. i won disappoint my dear friends. ill smile for them. ill stay happy for them! for
LiLin, bf-haoning, chewy, dear, bubble.. i noe i
CAN DO IT and i will! i conquer all those tears and i stand up bravely and
SMILE.
finally thanks to
BUBBLE! for those pep talks.
CHEWY for making me smile and for that lovely msg.
LiLin and Haoning for caring for me and making sure im ok.
i will be ok. i will be fine. ill cry no more.
LEADERS DONT CRY! LEADERS LEARN!!thou i dont noe if i still can call myself a leader.ive learnt my lesson and i won make the same one again. =)
